okay, so i'm sitting here typing to someone who may or may not exist when it occurs to me that I am chalk full of fears. okay so here is just a brief list of things that scare me or just kinda freak me out. Read them over and enjoy.
humming birds, showing my clevage, showing my stomach, sex with the lights on, trampolines, dogs, the ocean, crowds, theme parks, my neighbors, men, large machinery, electrical outlets, sharks, jelly fish, chicken bones, sickness, shaking hands with strangers, the mall, perfume, being home alone, random people talking to me, having to make an appointment with my adviser at school even though he's the same teacher i've had for all my accounting classes for the past 3 quarters, being considered sexy, looking like a bad mother, my kids being outside (our yard isn't fenced in yet (update, it is now, so they can go outside!) ), anyone else watching my kids, the constant nagging fear that someone somewhere is going to do something awful to one of my kids, that i look gangly and weird, that I am weird, that I can't get everything done that needs to be, that I'm just not enough, that i'm jaded, that I'll die before my kids can remember me,and lastly that someday i'll really tick my friends and family off and they'll leave.
so there you go, I'll be glad to elaborate on any of those should anyone request it. haha, i'm crazy. good to know eh?
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