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Latest update on one of my obsessions. The Missing McCann Case.

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The parents of Madeleine McCann have released artist's impressions of the man they think abducted their daughter.
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The images were drawn from the eyewitness account of one of the couple's friends, Jane Tanner, who was with them the night the four-year-old disappeared in Portugal.

They depict a man of southern European or Mediterranean appearance holding a child.

The man is drawn by the artist with greasy, straggly hair, wearing a purple or maroon top and beige chinos. He is aged about 35 to 40, 5ft 6in (1.7m) tall, and of slim build.

Crucially, the child, with her legs dangling, is wearing the same pyjamas as Madeleine on the evening of May 3.

To ensure accuracy, where Jane Tanner could not be certain, the artist left details blank.

The McCann's spokesman, Clarence Mitchell, said the release of the images was given the "tacit approval" of Portuguese police.

Mr Mitchell said: "This is another important phase of our investigation into Madeleine's abduction and we hope that this picture will be a very important reminder to anyone who was in the area on that night who may have seen this man.

"We believe that this was Madeleine being carried away by a man from the apartment, so we place great importance on having these pictures produced.

"Anyone who knows this man should contact our confidential phone line immediately."
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Okay....so, what you are telling me is that one of the McCanns friends saw a man carry off a child with the same PJ's as Maddie and did nothing? WHAT? WHAT? !!! I don't even know where to begin!!! ARG! What is wrong with these people? Is it the Brits or just this particular group of morons?

Oh Goodness

Okay, so I've decided to only blog here, I'm not moving the old one's over to my new my space page

so, what to talk about today? hmmm....Good think my mission 101 doesn't go into effect until November 1st. I'm not doing so well.

Gawl. I had a terrible personal moment today. I went out side for my lunch break. and there was this old homeless woman not doing much of anything around the subway. I had five dollars in my pocket. And yet, I could not find the courage to go up to her and ask if she wanted a sandwhich. I'm such a coward.
I did pick up someone's name badge/building key and return it to them. that involved more courage on my part than I usually put forth. But why couldn't i get that lady a hot meal? I wanted to. She needed it. I looked right at her, but I couldn't be brave enough to form the words. I think she knew i wanted to ask.
That makes it worse.

I can't get my snake to eat.

I think he has mites. I'll have to soak both him and Ami.

On the upside, Bathroom Bunny has proven to be a fairly good pet. He goes pooty and pee in his kennel. So there is almost no clean up. We plan on switching to a litter box soon for even less clean up. I highly recommend Bathroom Bunnies to everyone.

As for the dogs...
They bark way too much. But are still quite sweet. I just don't know what to do with them.
Any suggestions?

temp dump for myspace blog for durring move

The Take a Glance Campaign I've been thinking about it and I'm going to start a campaign. There already is one about not leaving your kids in the car, so I'm going for the social responsibility side of the coin. For now I'm going to call it "Take a Glance", simply because thats all it would take to save a baby left, forgotten in a car. I'm going to post things year round. When I get the funds I'm going to make stickers and flyers. It can happen any time of year. We hear most of the stories in the summer, but it happens in the fall too, when the temperature of a car rises above that of the outside air, just as it does in the summer. It also happens in winter, when the reverse happens to the children. So, to reiterate my last blog, Take a glance in the cars you pass as you go to work or cross the parking lot into walmart or wherever you might be. It's so insainly simple. 3:56 PM - 3 Comments - 4 Kudos - Add Comment

Easy Fix In the news I have heard far more than is reasonable stories about children being left in hot cars all day to die. It is, of course, the responsibility of the parents of said children to prevent this. However, that isn't enough for the children who have already suffered their fates. There are millions of people on myspace. Suppose we all take the time while walking into work, wal-mart, or where ever, to casually glance in the back seats of the cars we pass. How many of us would find a small child? How many of us would save lives? So far this year more than two dozen children have died this way. I'd like to think that we can stop this. It's such a simple thing to glance in a car. I'm challenging you, the reader, to do just that. Thank you, and if it suits you, please repost this. Imagine if one million people took the time to glance. Thank you. 3:05 PM - 2 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

08/16/2007 I’d gladly pay you tomorrow for a sticker today Current mood: annoyed Category: Life Okay, my eldest started kindergarten recently. Things have not gone smoothly. Everyday he comes home cranky and every morning its a battle to get him to go back to school. He went to head start for the past two years, so I know he can handle school. My child is a very bright, yet very stubborn child. With the exception of the first two days of school he has been sent home everyday with a note in his agenda about his behavior. "not minding" "not paying attention" "tried to strangle a child in line" (yeah...he got a whoopin for that one) "misbehaving in line, and lagging behind the class" and my favorite "poking holes in his work" He also writes his name in the shape of a rainbow, on purpose, and the teacher is none to happy about that. So I talk to him. Tell him school is important and he should listen to his teacher. That, natrually, does no good. So finally we ask "What, if anything, do you do when he misbehaves" I consider this one mystery solved. "first warning, no sticker, second warning five minutes from recess, third warning ten minutes from recess, ect. Today was better, but still not sticker behavior." She actually expects my child to obey on the promise of getting a little cheap ass sticker in his agenda for the day. Well, hell, he knows he can take a dollar down to the dollar tree and get a hundred of those stickers. And a few minutes out of recess? What does that matter when he does what he pleases all day long? Where's the time out? Where's the trip to the principles office? Heck, where is that quick smack on the butt? Not that I want them to beat him senseless, but the boy is used to people backing up their demands, and a sticker just isn't going to cut the mustard. The teacher has failed in his eyes to establish herself as an authority figure. I can do all I want at home and it won't help her out any. He knows that's a different place with rules he is creating himself because so far the worst that happens is that he goes back inside early. Come on! That might work on the other kids, but not mine! He knows how to work the system. That's my kid. 5:50 PM - 3 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

06/28/2007 i feel like yoko I can't make friends. It's pointless. It seems I'm too head strong and opinionated and pushy. I had a really great group of friends, that i loved, that made me so happy to be around, and now, it's not the same. I started seeing one of them. Which shouldn't be a huge deal since the other two are a couple. to we were two pairs instead of one pair and a couple wheels. But then, there was a situation that escalated very fast based on facts that were presented. Then, like with all things that escalate, it went to far. Now, I just can't make myself want to face one of the others. who is part of a couple. so it makes it hard to see the one I'm not mad at. And out of loyalty or personal disgruntled-ness "my" quarter of the group won't see the same person. again making things difficult for the...hell. It makes it hard on Jessica. I know she's going through a lot what with taking care of Nathan, but I'm just still so mad at him. More than mad. I'm disappointed that things turned out this way and i can't help but blame him. And now it looks like i betrayed Jessica. Which was not my intent. but I'm sure it doesn't matter. the thing is. I saw this band, twice, and spoke with them. I said that I'd like to try to do a write up about them in enigma. they said cool. Well, through a case of mistaken Identity they thought Jessica was me, and instead of admitting it they said I referred her to them. Which I didn't. I'm sorry. I never brought Jessica up. Because I wanted to do the write up. Because I was the one who spoke when them and saw them live. It just makes sense. Well, I emailed them to see if they still wanted to do the interview. They made no mention of Jessica. She has a ton to do anyway and I'm sure they don't want to wait til she has time, and besides, let me say this one more time, I saw their performance, and listening to their recordings is nothing in comparison. I could be wrong about the mistaken identity part, i don't know what was said to whom. Just that Jessica told me that they said I referred them to her. Yes, at this point i should have said something. but i had already emailed them my questions and i honestly didn't think it would turn out as well as it did. I put off telling her for when I knew if it would go in the paper or not. No point in bringing it up until then, that's what i thought anyway. Well, I didn't get confirmation that it would get published. I didn't find out until she emailed me about it. So, I feel like Yoko. I've broken up the band. There's more, but that's enough for now. 5:12 PM - 2 Comments - 4 Kudos - Add Comment

06/04/2007 There is simlpy no excuse The disappearance of Madeleine McCann occurred on the evening of Thursday, 3 May 2007, when a then three-year-old British girl Madeleine McCann went missing from a holiday apartment in Praia da Luz in the Algarve in Portugal, in which she was staying with her parents. Madeleine, who was in a bedroom with her two two-year-old siblings, was initially thought to have only "wandered off" by Portuguese Police, but further investigation by Portuguese police suggested an abduction. To read more about this google it or just go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Disappearance_of_Madeleine_McCann 1:58 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

Blog Because it's easier for me to blog at work with a diff. site, check here to read my stuff if you so choose. http://grayhermia.blogspot.com/ 5:24 AM - 1 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

05/30/2007 Exactly! Genius! Current mood: Insuperable Never mind man biting dog ... Artist eats Corgi to protest British royals' fox hunt; Yoko Ono also tastes it ..> ..> LONDON - A British artist has eaten chunks of a Corgi dog, the breed favored by Queen Elizabeth II, live on radio to protest against the royal family's treatment of animals. Mark McGowan, 37, said he ate "about three bites" of the dog meat, cooked with apples, onions and seasoning, to highlight what he called Prince Philip's mistreatment of a fox during a hunt by the Queen's husband in January. "It was pretty disgusting," McGowan said of the meal, which he ate while appearing on a London radio station on Tuesday. Yoko Ono, another guest on the show, also tried the meat. "I've never tasted anything like it — it was grey and had a very funny smell. It was horrible," McGowan told Reuters. Queen favors Corgis McGowan said he was angry that the Royal Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals, of which the royal family is a patron, had not prosecuted Prince Philip for hunting and killing the fox. The RSPCA said the fox did not suffer. Corgis are the favored dogs of the queen, who has owned more than 30 of them during her reign. The dog died of natural causes at a Corgi breeders and was prepared and cooked by others for McGowan. McGowan is well known for his outlandish performance stunts. He ate a swan in another protest against the queen. Swans are protected by the monarchy 7:15 AM - 5 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

05/25/2007 ATTACK! Current mood: silly ***I have sores on my feet. I think it's nice to have a good story to tell people about visible wounds. So, when asked "Lindsey, what did you do to yourself?" I reply "I tried to reconsile with my mortal enemy the flip flop. Negotiations failed and a battle ensued where the flops did flip, gravely wounding my feet. Did the wretched shoes survive? Nay, they have paid dearly for their betrayal!"*** 6:08 AM - 2 Comments - 4 Kudos - Add Comment

05/24/2007 GET HIM FRANK! There are no words, nothing, that can describe how I feel about this. One Charge Dropped Against Robert Reid Criminally negligent homicide charge remains Richard Simms WTVC-TV NewsChannel 9 May 23, 2007 - 12:45PM Prosecutors have dropped the most serious of two charges against a Chattanooga man whose 15 month old son died when he was left in a sweltering car outside the family's business. Hamilton County District Attorney, Bill Cox, agreed in a court hearing today to dismiss an aggravated child abuse charge against 43 year old Robert Reid. A charge of criminally negligent homicide in Timothy Reid's May first death will be presented to a grand jury. The boy's father remains free on a $1,500 bond. Dozens of the family's friends, and members of their church, attended the court hearing. Reid was accompanied by his wife, Beverly, and a brother. Defense attorney Jerry Summers said the justice system can't punish Reid the way he is being punished inside. Police have said the boy was unresponsive when discovered in a car seat in the father's BMW M5 sedan parked outside the family's business. Tests showed the temperature inside the car reached 142 degrees. The car's interior motion alarm went off four times because the child was moving inside, according to a police affidavit. Police have said Timothy was left in the car after he rode along as his father drove three other older children to school. We'll have the latest beginning on NewsChannel 9 at 5:00 p.m. 7:15 AM - 3 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

05/22/2007 In defense of a friend Granted, I do not know exactly what was written or said. But what I do know has infuriated me. So I shall lash out in the same manner as the villain who hath slenderized one of the kindest, most resilient people that I have ever had the privilege to encounter. My good friend has been attacked by a malevolent man, who seems to vitiate all that is good around him. Someone whose own reputation should have been enough to prevent him from attacking anyone, especially my compassionate friend. This uneducated bombast will not be tolerated. My friend is doughty, intelligent, witty, and loyal. None of these qualities can be found in the perpetrator. He should be humbled that he even knows my friend. 3:17 PM - 1 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment

The Mission should you chose to accept it....

I'm borrowing this idea and format from Angel…okay not so much borrowing as stealing with presumed premission.

Anyway, maybe if I have a list I can get my life in order. Lets see.

The Mission: Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria: Tasks must be specific with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on your part). Cross them off as you do them, and add the dates. Include the date you started the list and the finishing date. (You can use this to help figure out the finish date.)

More about Mission 101.

Start Date: Thursday November 1, 2007
End Date: Thursday, July 29, 2010

Finance:
001. Pay off credit cards. (hopefully with Tax Refund money)
002. Pay off car loan (or at least half of it)
003. Get six months ahead on house payments.
004. Make a donation of at least $50 to a charity.
005. Save $2 per day for the duration of the mission and deposit into savings account.
006. De-junk my house, many trips to the dump.
007. Use better money management, keep detailed records, use Accounting knowledge.

008. Have a clearly defined Monthly and Yearly home budget.
009. Start paying mom back.
010. Deposit at least $10 a month into both boys savings accounts and pay back what I have taken out in the past..

Health/Beauty:
011. Drink only water (at least 6 glass per day) when thirsty. Juice and milk only with meals.
012. Be healthy and weigh between 135-140 at the end of the mission.
013. Eat out only twice a month (this includes fastfood or dining resturants).
014. Participate in at least one awareness walk every half year.
015. Run a mile in less than 10 minutes.
016. Exercise for at least 20 minutes per day, if finances allow, join a gym.
017. Brush teeth in a.m. & before bed every night for duration of the mission.
018. Whiten teeth.
019. Wash face in a.m. & before bed every night for duration of the mission.
020. Apply lotion in a.m. & before bed every night.
021. Get back into Belly dance, practice at least 10 minutes daily, be a performer by end of mission.
022. Quit nail biting.
023. Have two full sleves of tattoos if finances allow. If not, do what you can.
024. Learn to stand up straight and walk like a confidant attractive lady
025. Get 8 hours of sleep every night and get up on time.
026. Look nice for work everyday.

Hobbies:
027. Master Belly Dance (Tribal Fusion and American Tribal Style)
028. Start and Finish 7 paintings. (acrylic or oil)
029. Fill one whole sketch book with life drawings.
030. Fill another sketch book with still lifes.
031. Do pastel poitraits of both boys.
032. Fill yet another sketch book with imaginative images.
033. Have a killer portfolio.
034. Fill one more sketch book with cartoon images for childrens book.
035. Finish fantasy adventure novel.
036. make no less then 5 volumes of children's books.
037. Read at least 2 books a month.
038. Every quarter year allow someone else to pick out a book for me to read.
039. Every quarter year read a book that is educational.
040. Sew my own really kick ass bedroom stuff.
041. Blog daily.
042. Decorate my house uniquely, whimzically, and thriftily.
043. Start a family tree.
044. Learn to swing dance.
045. Make and keep up a garden.

Education:
046. Take some art classes.
047. Look into getting bachelors. (in something…I need to pick)
048. Learn another language.

Family/Relationships:
049. Adopt or be ready for adoption.
050. Be in a secure, happy, loving relationship.
051. Be an even better mom.
052. Be a better daughter.
053. Have family portraits done.
054. Have portraits done of all kids (my generation) together for parents.
055. Have homework time with boys each evening during the school year.
056. Go on trips/adventures with my kids and make travel jars/books/boxes for each journey.
057. Express my gratitude to family more solidly than I do.
058. Make better efforts to visit friends and family.
059. Reconnect with some old friends.
060. Be active as a family.
061. Eat dinner at the kitchen table as a family every night for one month.
062. Go on a "date" with just my boys once a month.
063. Learn to go with the flow and relax.
064. Take family to church regularly.
065. Read a book to the boys every night. Pick something long with no pictures and read a chapter every night.
066. Establish and maintain a “chore chart” for all household members.
067. Write one letter each week to a friend or family member out of town.
068. Spend one day with sisters every quarter year.

Purchases:
069. Buy a projector.
070. Buy a couch.
071. Buy/obtain all new bathroom towels, including a set for guests.
072. Buy holiday decorating stuff.
073. Buy a really nice set of cookwear.
074. Buy a bookshelf or two…or twenty…
075. Buy a Flemish Giant.
076. Buy a family vacation.

Other:
077. Renovate new home.
078. Rock the vote.
079. Attend my 10 year high school reunion in June 2011 and look rockin'.
080. Have people over on a more regular basis.
081. Pray everyday.
082. Read & ponder one Bible verse per day.
083. Make dinners ahead of time and freeze.
084. Send out a Christmas newsletter updating the family on my boys, include pictures and christmas card..
085. Find at least one thing a day that makes me happy and record it for a year
086. Do dishes daily.
087. Wash one load of laundry per day.
088. See one show every month and buy a t-shirt.
089. Turn off tv and computer for one week straight.
090. Print all photos on disk using free promotions
091. Keep clutter off of the kitchen table and desk.
092. Learn better time management.
093. Help Owen everyday to speak clearly and confidently.
094. Teach Fletcher a "big" word every month(not only speaking but how to read and write it.)
095. Make gifts for people.
094. Be thrifty.

095. Make home more energy efficient.
096. See a musical at the Tivoli.
097. Adopt a child from the “Angel Tree”
098. Have about 20 button up shirts, 10 dress slacks, and 5 pairs of flats for work. (and that's all!)
099. Make our bed every morning for one month.
100. For every item on list not completed donate $2.
101. Create a new list and begin again!

You know what i CAN spell?

okay, so i'm at work, working my butt off mind you, and some people are talking about how to spell something and i ask "what are you trying to spell?" and one lady turns around and very rudely says "Oh, you wouldn't know"....yeah, well, I know how to spell bitch.
Just because I'm not of the same religion doesn't mean i wouldn't know how to spell one of your dishes. But thanks for thinking i'm that dumb. Really. I guess us Christians just don't understand.

Meez

Stop being pathetic!

Mr. Mooshy Mooshy Googoo Pants!


just had to get that out....

Love, love, love, love....mmmmmm

Wow. I am so glad that I'm not any age between 14-23. Wowzers!
Granted, I don't get all the hype because I didn't date around in high school or college. I was with my ex husband (dating and marriage) 7 years. So it really tickles the hell out of me when someone has been dating x amount of days/weeks/months and they "love each other". What really gets me is how moody they get when a fight or break up happens. Dude! You're 20! get over it!

Looking back, I don't think anyone under 22 needs to be in a completely exclusive relationship. Don't roll up into a ball of drama!

It's too easy to drop the L Bomb and not mean it. I'm guilty of it myself. BUT I've learned not too and that's important.

Do you know what it reminds me of when people rave on profile pages about how great and fabulous their guy/girl is? High school. What is more sickening (to me, as this is just my opinion and you know what they say about those) are the girls who make their display name "Bobby's Girl" or "Chris's Love!"....Really....that's your great claim? That is all of who you are? Your parent's never bothered to name you because they knew you'd be a sheep and take on such a lowly title?

Another thing that gets me, and i believe its just because people sling the l word as much as they sling leg, is how every person they are with is "the one" or "the love of my life". Oh get over it.

yeah, i should get over it too. But you know what? YOU'RE READING MY BLOG!
so, yeah, i get to say what i want. Just as the Love Dumb masses still get to say what they want.

I'm not saying in anyway that you can't care about someone deeply. i'm not saying that you can't fall in love that young. But real love doesn't look, act, and sound like the hallmark valentines section.

And there are people who do meet the loves of their lives early on. But i would wager that THAT is EXTREMELY rare.

So, girls, when you are 20 and you start feeling like you love someone, try the phrase "I really care about you" or " I feel so good when I'm around you". And get on some birth control. And when your fella of a year dumps or or cheats on you...YOU ARE ONLY 20 ...and that was just a year. no time at all. Ask the old folks who've been married 60 years.

Boys, you can use the same phrases. But when you are starting to get stressed out because your girl is acting weird or flying off the handle...don't mope about how you thought you'd be with her forever. Girls are crazy, (yes girls, we are), if you weren't expecting it you are a moron. Not every relationship is peaches and cream. And if all she's dated before you are assholes and you treat her nice...she'll most likely dump you if she's young because guess what turns her on? Jerks.

So, Girls, find that female empowerment or what ever, be glad you have your very own identity that is based on YOUR personality, YOUR interests, YOUR skills, YOUR life, and NOT that of the status of being with a man.

Boys, some of you need a kick in the balls just to remind you that you have them.

Right, well, that's my high horse on that. Now to improve myself just a little bit more by observing people and reading their thoughts. Because it's so much easier to identify someone else's splinter and then locate it in myself for removal.

:)

Help find this child. The police need to know who she is so they can save her. If she looks familar to you please call. It a Police station in navada. MSN gave this contact info:

If you have any information that might help police in this case, you are urged to call Crime Stoppers. That number is 385-5555.

You can view the story:
http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,298016,00.html
and
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/20973893/

Heroes Season Premier

Warning, if you didn't watch it, don't read this...I spoil everything!


Wow, did you see that last night? Was it everything we hoped for all summer?

No, but it was still pretty good. I'm a bit disappointed that none of the characters stayed dead. I understand that it doesn't feel good to have your favorite character axed, but on the other hand, it feels way to soap opera-ie to keep raising them from their dooms.

I'm really interested to see how the Hiro thing pans out. I think it's already horribly obvious where that is going. But, I love Hiro so I'm very happy he is getting his very own "coming to" adventure.

As for what occurred in Ireland (it was Ireland right?), sure, we all hoped that the situation was not what it was, but it made sense. That development last night, sure you can pull it off logically, but I don't know. I feel cheated a dramatic death.

Poor Hiro's Dad, he was finally coming back to the light side. Oh well. And Mrs. Petrelli, Oh how I will enjoy her demise.

Lets see...Sorry about Matt and his wife, I guess it had to happen though, who wants to live with a man that can read your mind? besides, that hussy cheated on him.
And beautiful, beautiful Suresh (spelling? eh, it's a blog, sound it out). Clever little thing working with Mr. Bennet.

OMG Claire will have a high school romance with someone who flies just like her daddy! I guess they needed to draw in the teenie boppers. Funny if it turns out to be her brother (Nathan you scallywag!)

Speaking of Nathan, you should be dead too! Where the hell is my tragedy?!

I like the new characters. Hope everyone kept up with the graphic novels over the summer!

Sylar......I'm so pissed you aren't dead...that's what one of the commercials indicated.
He was a great one season psycho. After that its redundant and annoying. I'm ready for that super bad, clever master mind that molly (or whatever her name is) sees in her sleep.

And really, two guys that are trying to save the world have time to raise a little girl? So I suppose halfway through the season we'll get a lesson on DFACS and how to keep a kind of adopted kid.

I don't know. I'm still excited over the season, and I still really enjoyed last night's premier, but I can't help but feel that the sophomore slump is looming ahead, ready to strike. I hope the writers have some serious cadbury bunnies in their hats.

Temporary Post Until I get home to do the whole myspace thing.

If you opened it, you have to do it! Now start. (No, you don't, not really. And if you don't, the boogie man won't bother you, Promise)

19 LOVE QUESTiONS

1. Four Names You Go By: (Love question?)
A. Lindsey
B. Mommy
C. Sugarfoot
D. Selfish Bitch (oh I feel the love off that one )


2. Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now: (again, this is love related?)
A. gray pants, pinstriped with pink and black
B. Pink collared shirt.
C. Pink and gold flats

[01] Do you still have feelings for your ex?
A: Not really, I shut those things off. I mean hell, I probably imagined them in the first place knowing my crazy ass.

[02] Have you ever been given roses?
A: yeah, that's standard dating fare.

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
A: garsh, I don't know. The Princess Bride.

[04] How many times have you honestly been in love?
A: I love my kids. If it feels anything like that only towards a man, no, not quite. I love, but so far, hindsight shows I wasn't "in" love.

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
A: No. I think you could match yourself up with any number of people. It's a right place right time sort of deal. If you live in china, more than likely you'll find someone to love, that doesn't mean that if you had been in America instead of china that day that you couldn't have met someone else that would make you equally as happy. Too many people for the whole soul mate business.

[06] Whats your current problem?
A: Same old same old. Money.

[07] Have you ever had your heart broken?
A: No. I've been emotionally torn up for a bit, but nothing that i would say is heartbroken.

[08] Long Distance Relationships?
A: They don't work if you are both broke and only one person is willing to travel. awe, hell, they don't freakin' work anyway.

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
A: It happens on occasion. If you are committed to your exclusive relationship, you cool it with that friend for a while to reduce temptation. Why even put yourself in a situation where you could loose, even if you don't. I i know what I mean even if you don't.

[10] Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
A: Yeah.

[11] How many kids do you want to have?
A: I don't know. Thats and idea i like to toy with, but will not seriously pursue through thought until i have my finances a little less....financigooie.

[12] What is your favorite color(s)?
A: I refuse to pick one. Yes, I'm the sort of person that lives on the fence. Deal with it or get over it, i'm not budging.

[14] Do you believe you only have one true love?
A: I believe i explained that with the whole "soul mate thing".

[15] Imagine you're 79 and your spouse just died, would you get re-married?
A: arg. Probably not. It's more fun to date anyway.

[16] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
A: You mean like actually attracted to it in a sexual way? 15? or just boys are different than girls? cos that be like 2.

[17] What song do you want to hear at your wedding?
A: I don't know. That's not really something I think about. I'm not all that sentimental.

[18] Do you know someone who likes you?
A: and here you claimed this was a love survey. liar. yeah. people like me, some of them. others can't stand me. fine by me. one side out weighs the other. and either way, i'm fine with me and so is my family.

[19] Do you like anyone?
A: Billy Davis is the schools hottest quarterback, i totally like him! Seriously....I enjoy the company of many people in a completely platonic way. if that wasn't the answer you wanted, you should have asked your question better. "Say your right words"

Not mine, obviously, but a good lesson

The sun was shining on the sea,
Shining with all his might:
He did his very best to make
The billows smooth and bright--
And this was odd, because it was
The middle of the night.

The moon was shining sulkily,
Because she thought the sun
Had got no business to be there
After the day was done--
"It's very rude of him," she said,
"To come and spoil the fun!"

The sea was wet as wet could be,
The sands were dry as dry.
You could not see a cloud, because
No cloud was in the sky:
No birds were flying overhead--
There were no birds to fly.

The Walrus and the Carpenter
Were walking close at hand;
They wept like anything to see
Such quantities of sand:
"If this were only cleared away,"
They said, "it would be grand!"

"If seven maids with seven mops
Swept it for half a year.
Do you suppose," the Walrus said,
"That they could get it clear?"
"I doubt it," said the Carpenter,
And shed a bitter tear.

"O Oysters, come and walk with us!"
The Walrus did beseech.
"A pleasant walk, a pleasant talk,
Along the briny beach:
We cannot do with more than four,
To give a hand to each."

The eldest Oyster looked at him,
But never a word he said:
The eldest Oyster winked his eye,
And shook his heavy head--
Meaning to say he did not choose
To leave the oyster-bed.

But four young Oysters hurried up,
All eager for the treat:
Their coats were brushed, their faces washed,
Their shoes were clean and neat--
And this was odd, because, you know,
They hadn't any feet.

Four other Oysters followed them,
And yet another four;
And thick and fast they came at last,
And more, and more, and more--
All hopping through the frothy waves,
And scrambling to the shore.

The Walrus and the Carpenter
Walked on a mile or so,
And then they rested on a rock
Conveniently low:
And all the little Oysters stood
And waited in a row.

"The time has come," the Walrus said,
"To talk of many things:
Of shoes--and ships--and sealing-wax--
Of cabbages--and kings--
And why the sea is boiling hot--
And whether pigs have wings."

"But wait a bit," the Oysters cried,
"Before we have our chat;
For some of us are out of breath,
And all of us are fat!"
"No hurry!" said the Carpenter.
They thanked him much for that.

"A loaf of bread," the Walrus said,
"Is what we chiefly need:
Pepper and vinegar besides
Are very good indeed--
Now if you're ready, Oysters dear,
We can begin to feed."

"But not on us!" the Oysters cried,
Turning a little blue.
"After such kindness, that would be
A dismal thing to do!"
"The night is fine," the Walrus said.
"Do you admire the view?

"It was so kind of you to come!
And you are very nice!"
The Carpenter said nothing but
"Cut us another slice:
I wish you were not quite so deaf--
I've had to ask you twice!"

"It seems a shame," the Walrus said,
"To play them such a trick,
After we've brought them out so far,
And made them trot so quick!"
The Carpenter said nothing but
"The butter's spread too thick!"

"I weep for you," the Walrus said:
"I deeply sympathize."
With sobs and tears he sorted out
Those of the largest size,
Holding his pocket-handkerchief
Before his streaming eyes.

"O Oysters," said the Carpenter,
"You've had a pleasant run!
Shall we be trotting home again?'
But answer came there none--
And this was scarcely odd, because
They'd eaten every one.

Excuse me while I blend in with the scenery

More and more I come across people who want to be "the next big thing"
Name in lights, best sellers on the shelves, videos on MTV, fans desperately searching google for a new picture, men drooling at their heels, women flinging panties at their feet, ect.

Sure, the money would be nice. But even then, would it? I can't imagine how stressful those kinds of lives must actually be. How unhealthy they are.

I'm not sure why I don't join in with that fame seeking frame of thought. I believe we should all shine and succeed in life, but is that really success?

I can't help but wonder what the lives of histories most famous artists, musicians, writers, political minds, and war time heroes were REALLY like. Not just the way history was reported but the way it really was. Did they consciously think about being famous? or did they just do what they loved and were lucky enough to be recognized for it? Where they even really recognized for it while living? Oh sure some of them did. Little snippets of glory here and there for some and more so for others.

Was fame back then like fame is now? Surely not. Seems like anyone can be famous these days. Specifically the trashier you are. Yes, there are non-trashy famous people that do great things for the world, but even some of them went through their trashy phase (Angelina Jolie).

So, I don't understand this drive. This lust for the spot light. But I also understand that no two people are exactly the same, so I would never expect some people to be happy with the same things that I'm happy with.

What makes me happy? This question has been raised to me recently by an un-named source. Apparently some people think I'm not happy or am hard to make happy.

I don't need people to make me happy. I make me happy. I find joy in other people but don't expect them to do things for the explicit reason of my happiness.

I find joy in impressing my mother. I may never have my book published, and I don't really care if I ever do, but my mom loves what I've written and that is a far greater award for me than if I were a New York Times best seller for 92 weeks in a row. I know my mother, there is no greater book critic I'm sure. But she likes what I write. And she isn't the mom that just gives praise simply because I'm her child.

I find joy in simply sitting with my children. Just their existence is joy. I worry for them, I work for them, I live for them. And that is as much as I could ever want. The love that they have brought into my world is beyond words, beyond feeling almost, certainly beyond understanding. A love so strong and so bold that at times I wonder if it won't burn out my soul with its brilliance.
That is enough for me.

I find joy in eating dinner with my aunt and uncle. In making them proud. For there are no two other people in my life that have shown me what hard work, proper planning, and real marriage are.

I find joy in my friends. Though friends do come and go and I no longer invest myself quite as much as I used to, I find enjoyment and peace in their company. I am learning to save myself the pain and frustration that often comes with friendship by keeping things casual. No more "best friends" or only one or two friends that I spend my free time with. I suppose you give up the idea of a sole bosom companion as you get older.

I find joy in life in general. How could I see my friends and family if I'm blinded by the spot light?

Where am I going with this? Just that while it's fine for others to seek that center stage position, I'm more than happy down stage among the throng of extras, for my place and effect in this world may not be wide spread, it has its effect none the less. What care I if I'm remembered by people 500 years from now. My boys know I love them, what greater fame could I ever hope to achieve?

RIP Patcat

Okay, so this the the second time we've been through this.

Date: Sep 17, 2007 11:36 PM
Subject: RIP Patrick
Body: For those of you who do not know, Patrick was hospitalized early this morning for intestinal pains. After x-rays an infection was found in his kidneys. Rush surgery was admitted. Unfortunately he had allergic reaction to his anesthesia. He could not be saved. I don't really know what else to say, but I will keep you all posted.

RIP buddy...you will be missed :(

Of course the first time it was a single prank on one victim. This time, we'll call him Tom, Tom decided to prank anyone willing to fall for a myspace bulletin.

I got a call at midnight because some one fell for it.

Granted neither Patrick nor myself knew of this prank, but come on! First, do you really think that we are going to have a third party post a bulletin on myspace? And if someone did, don't you think that they'd be a little more heart felt? Maybe I can only see the ruse because I knew for a fact that Patrick was fine.

The most annoying part was who called. What were the odds that they really thought I'd pick up for them? After what has happened between that party, Patrick, and myself? No. I had Patrick call back simply to prevent more phone calls.

So, There you go people. Patrick is very much alive, getting ready to start a great new job, and as far as I know, generally healthy and happy.

But I'd really like to thank everyone's concern for his well being when he really was badly sick.

You care if he's dead, but not so much if he might need someone to drop off some chicken soup.

Now that's devotion.