hells yeah

I'm glad i'm not the only one.

clipped from winnipegsun.com "The last time I saw him he was in pretty rough shape mentally," said Bruce Hart, son of the legendary Stu Hart. "I didn't know all the details but I knew it wasn't good. I was not at all shocked (by what happened). Hart was also deeply angered that the WWE aired a three-hour tribute to Benoit on Monday night. "I kept hearing 'He was a nice guy, a great guy' and I knew him when he was a kid. But all I know now is he's a murderer," Hart said. In my opinion, "for them to do a tribute show was disgraceful."

mmm...lyrics.

You walk like a zombie
You talk like a zombie
Its not in your head
You're a living dead
Whatever you're gonna do
You're gonna make me cry

And you wanna hold hands
In the cemetery
And you wanna be lost
For all eternity
And everything is dark
And kind of scary
And you crave the full moon
But i don't care

And you want a mountaintop
With a little castle
And you wanna name our kids
Morticia and fester
And all the flowers you bring
Are always dead
And you howl at the moon
But i don't care

Six feet under
You make me wonder
You wanna be undead
So you can be hunted
But whatever you're gonna do
I'm gonna follow you

I feel like Yoko.

I can't make friends. It's pointless. It seems I'm too head strong and opinionated and pushy. I had a really great group of friends, that i loved, that made me so happy to be around, and now, it's not the same. I started seeing one of them. Which shouldn't be a huge deal since the other two are a couple. to we were two pairs instead of one pair and a couple wheels. But then, there was a situation that escalated very fast based on facts that were presented. Then, like with all things that escalate, it went to far. Now, I just can't make myself want to face one of the others. who is part of a couple. so it makes it hard to see the one I'm not mad at. And out of loyalty or personal disgruntled-ness "my" quarter of the group won't see the same person. again making things difficult for the...hell. It makes it hard on Jessica. I know she's going through a lot what with taking care of Nathan, but I'm just still so mad at him. More than mad. I'm disappointed that things turned out this way and i can't help but blame him. And now it looks like i betrayed Jessica. Which was not my intent. but I'm sure it doesn't matter.
the thing is. I saw this band, twice, and spoke with them. I said that I'd like to try to do a write up about them in enigma. they said cool. Well, through a case of mistaken Identity they thought Jessica was me, and instead of admitting it they said I referred her to them. Which I didn't. I'm sorry. I never brought Jessica up. Because I wanted to do the write up. Because I was the one who spoke when them and saw them live. It just makes sense. Well, I emailed them to see if they still wanted to do the interview. They made no mention of Jessica. She has a ton to do anyway and I'm sure they don't want to wait til she has time, and besides, let me say this one more time, I saw their performance, and listening to their recordings is nothing in comparison. I could be wrong about the mistaken identity part, i don't know what was said to whom. Just that Jessica told me that they said I referred them to her. Yes, at this point i should have said something. but i had already emailed them my questions and i honestly didn't think it would turn out as well as it did. I put off telling her for when I knew if it would go in the paper or not. No point in bringing it up until then, that's what i thought anyway.
Well, I didn't get confirmation that it would get published. I didn't find out until she emailed me about it.
So, I feel like Yoko. I've broken up the band.

There's more, but that's enough for now.

WHAT?! NO!

HE KILLED HIS FAMILY! DO NOT HONOR HIM IN ANY WAY!!!!!
I don't care what he accomplished in his life or how swell a guy he seemed. He murdered his 7 year old boy and his wife. He does not deserve to be morned, commemorated, or honored. That's just sick that he should be treated as anything other than a beast!

clipped from www.msnbc.msn.com The WWE canceled its live “Monday Night RAW” card in Corpus Christi, Texas, and USA Network aired a three-hour tribute to Benoit in place of the scheduled wrestling telecast.

So, I'm taking this right off my todo list!

I'm sorry for the family of these two people....but ....hahahaha... my morbid sense of humor just can't stand how funny this is. God I hope the sex was worth it!

clipped from www.msnbc.msn.com Coitus interruptus? Naked couple who fell from roof to their deaths may have been having sex COLUMBIA, S.C. - Police on Wednesday were investigating how a naked couple fell 50 feet from the roof of an office building to their deaths. The bodies were found on the road by a passing cabdriver around 5 a.m. Wednesday. Clothing was discovered on the roof of the four-story building, leading authorities to suspect the man and woman, in their early 20s, may have been having sex. Their identities were not released. "It's too early to rule out anything," Columbia police Sgt. Florence McCants said, but McCants said a preliminary investigation did not show any sign of foul play.

They are dropping like flys

The more I learn about people, and more importantly, what they believe about me, the more I really don't like them.
Since it has been brought to my attention that the people whom I had thought up until now enjoyed my company have in fact, not. Well, then don't act like you do! And if by chance I have offended you by say, I don't know, letting your wife/girlfriend know that you are having an affair, or at least confirming what she already knew with information that i was given (even if i present it in a "i don't know this is factual" manner) then let me know. And as for timing, well, sometimes I have to take what's given. and you know what, that doesn't mean that a day/night was ruined for everyone. 15 minutes of weird. that's all it was, then it was over. BAM! that's so worth calling me out for. But hey, lets still think the guy that did the deed is still the shit.

And maybe they think I'm hypocritical. Yeah, I started talking to a guy AFTER my marriage deteriorated. But i sure as hell didn't sleep with him till after the divorce. And believe me, I've learned a great lesson about all that. The point though, is that it was AFTER my marriage was over, not during, not while we went to counseling. After all that. When i was just crazy.
and yeah, i go crazy. So what! Don't you all? Don't you wonder if your life should be different? Don't you question the choices you've made? if you say you don't then you are so full of cow dung that it's ridiculous.
I've made poor choices. My divorce was not one of them. My relationship after that was, my trying to be friends with the ex sure feels like a bad idea since he manages to piss me off on a daily basis.
I'm even over making new friends. It's all so pointless. I don't feel like i can trust any new people. Especially when i have a saboteur out there.
So, here's the notice people.
I'm the way I am. I try to better myself, but short of that, I'm not really going to change.
You can take me the way I am and stop bitching about it, or you can stop acting like you are my friends and then discussing how much disdain you have for me when I'm gone. I will not be that person.
Don't say hi to me if you feel that you are having to fain a pleasant conversation. Don't worry, I hate talking in grocery stores, and i don't go out for coffee anymore.

Speaking of Stupid

i'm not even gonna start on this one, it speaks for itself.

Five Year Old Boy Drowns

Karen Zatkulak

June 10, 2007 - 6:14PM

A North Georgia group is mourning the death of a five year old boy, who drowned on a family trip to the river. It happened in Trion Saturday night. Tragedy struck when a boat carrying nine people overturned in the Chattooga River. Police tell us the boat made for two, was holding three adults and six children. Emergency responders say they the saw eight victims laying on the bank, many barely breathing. Unfortunately, five year old Dakota Avans was still in the water. The Chattooga River flows on a beautiful summer day, much like yesterday when two families took their children to play by the River. Chattooga County Sheriff's Office Detective Eddia Strup tells us it was a good idea, but bad decisions were made. "They were coming here to camp out, enjoy the River, and have a good Weekend."

But it was anything but when this boat they were riding in flipped over around six o-clock Saturday night, sending it's nine passengers, including six young children into the water.

Sturp says the boat should never hold that many passengers. "That's unbelievable to me, that they would try to put that many people in a boat."

Strup says all three adults AND each child made it to this bank, but five year old Dakota Avans someone slipped back in. "A deep sad feeling, I was very concerned that this child was possibly still in the river, that's troubling, it would be to anyone."

Investigator Strup says the Department of Natural Resources dragged the section of the river for several hours with no luck. Finally, another unit arrived with a thermal camera and they were able to find Dakota's body at three in the morning.

They found it right next to the where the boat lay, nine feet under the surface...

Strup says it's an accident that shouldn't have happened. "It's bad enough when this type of thing happens to an adult, but it's just horrible to see a young child like this lose his life this way."

Police tell us Dakota's mother, the other two adults, and a three year old were airlifted to Erlanger. They are all doing okay. NONE of the passengers were wearing a life jacket. Investigator Strup says no charges have been filed at this point.

Other readers response, including the one defending the idiots

Reader's comments

---

Does it MATTER if the windows were rolled down? NO. Does it MATTER how long the child was in the car? NO. It MATTERS that the child was TIED in the car and could not leave although it was hot. Peanut77, I certainly hope you don't have any kids. Or is this article about you?
SR - Jun 13, 2007 08:10:10 AM	Remove Comment
How dangerous and utterly irrisponsible. chidren are not dogs! Even if it's not hot outside he could have been kiddnaped, raped and murdered! it is the job of the parent to protect their offpring It's a genetic predisposition If you neglect and abuse your child like this, i have to wonder about your humanity. And as for the Christian bit, I believe Jesus said to care for the little children, not put them in fatally dangerous situations. I truely hope that the justice system takes care of this. Feel free to read my blog i'll write about this later today at grayhermia. blogspot. com. look for my rant after lunch.
Lindsey Stephenson - Jun 13, 2007 06:47:41 AM	Remove Comment
Maybe I missed this but where did it say anything about them being christian or going to church? Sorry to be a bother but I was just curious what that was all about. What did the child do that caused him to be punished in the first place? Also, are the police sure about how long he was out there? Were the windows rolled down? Was air able to circulate through the car at all?
peanut77 - Jun 13, 2007 12:32:27 AM	Remove Comment
Perhaps they were just trying to excise the devil from the unruly spawn. Yes, it's true. Nothing will happen to them. I'll put in a good word to the DA for them. Good christians stick together.
Bob Reid - Jun 12, 2007 07:56:00 PM	Remove Comment
I left my child in a hot car also, and nothing happened to me. These parents have nothing to worry about.
Robert Reid - Jun 12, 2007 07:48:01 PM	Remove Comment
Maybe they should tie them up put them in a car in the middle of the afternoon and see how they like it
chuck Taylor - Jun 12, 2007 05:01:07 PM	Remove Comment
I am sure they are good christian people, so all charge should be dropped immediately. members of my church will vouch for them.
bob reid - Jun 12, 2007 04:46:08 PM	Remove Comment
Hang those parents from the nearest tree. Then ask God what the hell he was thinking when he blessed those mofo's with a child in the first place.
Pitiful Parents - Jun 12, 2007 02:59:55 PM	Remove Comment
Seriously, what is wrong with these parents? I can't believe they did this to their own flesh and blood.
Me - Jun 12, 2007 02:56:05 PM	Remove Comment
I am outraged by this story. I cannot believe that someone would be so stupid. This is pure evil. THis child-and any other child these people have need to be taken away from them and never be returned. They should be charged with attempted murder and spend the rest of thier lives in prision.
Soddy-Daisy Citizen - Jun 12, 2007 02:47:29 PM	Remove Comment
I heard about this on my way to work this morning. It is such a shame and it makes me so angry. I hope the boy is taken away from those people and placed with someone who will love him!
Jamie Creason - Jun 12, 2007 02:17:10 PM	Remove Comment
Another example of why some people should not be allowed to reproduce! This just makes me so mad! Poor child! No telling what else he has been put through!
Are you kidding me? - Jun 12, 2007 01:14:32 PM	Remove Comment

Out of order, i know. Here are my thoughts.

Basic Human Instinct. Procreate and protect your offspring. That's one of the standard fundamentals of being a mammal. A dog would try to pull her babies out of a fire, a whale would protect her baby from a shark, a Human should put their baby's life before there own.
That child is lucky to have not died from heat exposure. I sincerely hope that he never has to go back to his mother. There are families that would, and could take much better care of him. Regardless of his behavior he should not have been treated that way.
It irks me that i have actually ran across someone defending these people, of course, work has that blocked so i can't give you a direct quote, but the gist of it was that these people are Christians (i'm supposing that this person must know them, because no where in any of the reports have i seen this mentioned) and that he will put in a good word for them with the DA, and further more, his church backs them too! To make a point of how innocent these people's actions were he states that he has left his children in the car on many occasions and has never gotten in trouble for it.

In this day and time it is not only CRUEL to leave a kid in the car (not to mention tied up as this poor boy was) but insanely unsafe! How many stories do I come across everyday about a child being taken, raped, and murdered? How easy would it have been for someone to have done that with this boy? To think that his mother would risk him ending up like that poor 6 year old in Savannah just so that she can finish her meal in peace is utterly disgusting.

I have kids. I'm not just on a soap box with out some life experience here. Do you think I wouldn't LOVE to eat a meal out in public uninterrupted? of course i would. But do you know what i love more than a peaceful meal? My children. I would rather them spill the soda on the old lady behind us than them have anything evil done to them.

I really hope that the system doesn't fail this time. I'm still angered that the local father who left his baby in the car (it died of course) isn't really in trouble. Who wouldn't go check there car if the alarm kept going off? Who forgets their kid in the first place?

I see parents everyday making what i believe to be dangerous decisions with their kids. I'm holding my breath about a few in my neighborhood. I hope nothing ever happens, but when i see a 4 year old girl outside for extended periods of time with out an adult, i can't help but worry.

I'm not a perfect parent. But I'd like to think, and hopefully those who know me will agree, that i do as much as i can to keep them safe. In the end, for all i know, all my efforts could fail, but that won't ever stop me from trying.

I'm begging parents everywhere to be more attentive. not just to your kids. Keep your eye on that kid across the street when you notice a car pull up and talk to him, slow down when you see that tot on a tricycle in his driveway and no one appears to be making sure he doesn't beeline for the road, and Glance into other cars in the parking lot as you are walking by, you never know when someone could have "forgotten" their baby! NEVER be afraid to call the police!

Thank you for reading this. Now, go to the next two items to see what i'm talking about.

Hot Car

http://news.mywebpal.com/partners/730/images/news/hotcar.jpg

to look at the horrible mother and her "companion" from the story below.

He're is the Story about idiots that i have most recently found.

RINGGOLD -- Investigators discovered a crying 6-year-old boy tied up in a sweltering car at a suburban restaurant after employees saw a man take the child outside and then return without him to finish eating.

An employee at the Cracker Barrel restaurant called Ringgold police after staff witnessed the incident Saturday, Sgt. John Gass said Tuesday Gass said investigators believe the child, whose name was not released, was likely tied up for about 30 minutes while outside temperatures were in the 80s in Ringgold, about 13 miles southeast of Chattanooga.

‘‘He was sitting up in between the two front seats and he was crying,’’ Gass said. ‘‘He had a rope tied to one of his ankles. The child was just sweating, just soaking.’’

Gass said he and a county investigator ‘‘untied him and took him inside where it was cool.’’

The boy’s mother, Rachel Gilchrist, 35, and her companion, Raymond Minchew, 61, both of Sandy Springs, Ga., were arrested Saturday and charged with cruelty to children and concealing a weapon. Police found a handgun in the car.

Gilchrist remains in custody today at the Catoosa County, Ga., jail. Records show Minchew was released late Monday on a $5,000 bond.

The mother and her companion contend the boy misbehaved, although witnesses disagreed, Gass said.

‘‘It doesn’t matter what the child did. No child needs to be taken out and put in a vehicle, left alone and put in the heat,’’ Gass said.

He said the boy was placed in state protective custody.

An employee at the restaurant said today that company policy would not allow staff members to comment.

‘‘I am glad somebody called,’’ Gass said. ‘‘We don’t know what else might be going on. I’m just glad the little man is not with them anymore.’’

Gass said the boy’s mother and her companion were in northwest Georgia for sightseeing.

County court officials declined to provide any schedule of hearings for the mother and her friend.

ALL THESE BLOGS IN ONE DAY?!?!?!

are taken off my myspace blog, just the ones i wanted to share on here. hope you enjoy.

old mean blog off myspace that i did a while back

his smile was infectious, but then again, so are measles...
Current mood: SPOON!

i'm sooooo tired of seeing little "goth" kids. now, i'm not talking about 'goth' kids, see the difference in the " " verses the ' '. here is my beef with the "goth" kids. A pentagram, penta being 5, haS FIVE points. and it's upside down if you're trying to be all "evil". What i keep crossing paths with are "goth" kids with the star of david. That is a jewish symbol. Now, I don't know much about the devil other than he is 'evul' (haha) but i don't think he typically can be exchanged with judism with out anyone noticing.

And there is this band, or this guy or something called H.I.M. man that sucks.(the music, lyrics and vocals that is, I'm sure he or they are lovely people) any way, that whole heartagram thing has to be the biggest pansy (not the flower) looking thing eva! nothin' says dark bad ass like a heart, awwweee. so, there are my thoughts on that.

I was just reminded of another band. Avenged sevenfold. first what ever could need avenging seven times over? anyway. Awesomely great sound. there music rocks soooo much. that is, until the guy starts singing. Who IN ThE HELL SINGS LIKE THAT TO THAT KIND OF MUSIC?!!!! it's like all whiney and bitchy and moany. I want to have the impulse to headbang or breaksomething or just yell and throw my arms about when I'm listening to rock. I DONT want to have the impulse to change a diper cos somebody is whining like a baby. COME ON! and also, i'm anti-drugs, illegal and misused, so the lyrics don't typically sit well with me either. but i could totally overlook and even enjoy the lyrics if they were sang by someone hard and edgie and didn't go "woe oh oh oh". ARRRGGG!

i'm cool with people having different religons and beliefs so long as they actually have them. i don't think either god or the devil fancy being a fashion accessory. that's just me though. i'd have to ask to get offical conformation.

Not that i'm one to shove Jesus down throats or anything, but i saw a nice bumber sticker the other day (yay bumpersticker wisdom) and it said something to the effect of "give jesus a try, if you don't like him, satan will always take you back".....yep......."Shit happens" is also a fav. I do hate the ones with the man figure (like on bathroom door signs) the woman figure (same thing only with a skirt, cos all gals where a skirt ***) = marriage. where's the love in that little equasion? (i can't spell) I don't care what you have in your pants, if you love each other and only each other and want to live a good life together, you have my blessing. of course my blessing doesn't really count for anything cos, ya know, i'm not the government.

*** they should just post genitals. it's much more specific.

lets see, what else.....my kids have a stomach virus and cos the peachcare website is set up stupid they don't have insurance right now. that big part time job i have (haha) put us over the income limit for medicaid. arrggg...

have you ever cleaned up really runny mucusie poop? it's not as fun as it sounds. the wipes just kinda push the stuff around rather than get it up. hurray for a deep sink and a spray nossle. (and bleach, for after of course, in the sink, not the babies, geez)

i had to miss most of a day of work today...yep..if it hadn't been for the poop it would have been pleasant. stupid poop.

the weather totally rocks today. it's all warm and pretty.

i saw a commercial for my school on tv last night. SUPER cheese. i'm gonna have a chat with the pr guy. i mean come on! who falls for that. (yes i realize that i go to that school, but its convienant.) they should put me in a commercial. "Come to NTC 'cos its cheap, close and easy!" Right now there slogan thing is "what did i get out of NTC? A JOB!" yeah, i don't have any complaints about that....but it could be better! I'll let you know if i think of anything. And the guy on the bilboard! AHHHH the teeth are sooooooooo white!

so, by this time you might be wondering "whose smile is infectious?" it's a funny line from a book. the blog title that is .

i'm 'sharing' music on limewire...so very addictive. i just want so many songs i don't know where to begin.

okay, i guess that's it. oh, does anyone know of any places to go in atlanta when you're not 21? k. thanks.

old music survey i did a while back

mmmm music survey (drool)

1.Of all the bands/artists in your cd/record collection, which one do you own the most albums by?
the smashing pumpkins

2. What was the last song you listened to?
the thong song, I dont have to explain anything to you!

3. What's in your record/CD player right now?
the darkness, permission to land

4. What song pretty much sums you up?
i believe in a thing called loveseriously I have no idea. Pour some sugar on me? I like big butts? The possiblities are endless.

5. What's your favorite local band?
the rounders and the orange julians

6. What was the last show you attended?
some show at rythem and brews. The bouncer said that it would sound like a combination of dave matthews and pearl jam. I should have known better but I just had to hear what that train wreak sounded like. Dave Jam = Not Good.

7. What was the greatest show you've ever been to?
2. hankIII & the reverend horton heat in Athens, sweet moses that was good stuff

8. What's the worst band you've ever seen in concert?
see question six. Of course there was this really awful band called f.o.p. once (just teasin guys)

9. What band do you love musically but hate the members of?
metallica

10. What is the most musically involved you have ever been?
i dated a couple of band guys in high school. I was also in the high school marching band in 8th grade and my freshman year.

11. What shows are you looking forward to?
Seeing the Orange Julians, finally and without my kids getting sick last damn minute

12. What is your favorite band shirt?
I dont think I have any anymore..sometimes I sleep in my husbands metallica shirts

13. What musician would you like to hang out with for a day?
david bowie

14. What musician would you like to be in love with for a day?
Ill pass thanks.

15. Pat Benatar or Cyndi Lauper?
Pat! Always Pat.

16. Sabbath or solo Ozzy?
eh, Im not so into either as to have a preference. Either works for me.

17. Commodores or solo Lionel Ritchie?
..see 16..

18. Punk rock, hip hop or heavy metal?
3. metal, sweet sweet metalof course all kinds of rock are goodness to me

19. Doesn't Primus suck?
suck on this.Im told this is the proper response. Sorry, I never really jumped on the primus boat.

20. Name 5 flawless albums:
I have no bloody idea.

21. Did you know that filling out this survey makes you a music geek?
maybe Im just a partial geek, I dont know nearly as much stuff as I should.

22. What was the greatest decade for music?
80s

23. How many music-related videos/DVDs do you own?
one

24. Do you like Journey?
why not?

25. Don't try to pretend you don't!
what, are you going to stop me, I retract my answer to 24, I hate journey. What are you gonna do about it?! Thats what I thought.

26. What is your favorite movie soundtrack?
the nightmare before Christmas and the phantom of the opera, yeah I know thats two, wanna rumble?

27. What was your last musical phase?
whats today..

28. What's the crappiest CD/record/etc?
you got what I need..come on sing along, you know you want to.

29. Do you prefer vinyl or CDs?
cds cos I can play themI dont own a record playerI just dont ok!

30. All totaled, how much do you spend on music a MONTH?
oh, so this was a survey for people who dont have kids and a mortgage. I see, sorry to waste your time.

MAKANI

so there is this really really funny artist, mostly she does harry potter stuff, anyway she goes by makani. She's super talented and I suggest that everyone who has any idea what the harry potter world is about go and check her out. go to http://acciobrain.ligermagic.com/ so, there ya go. Super funny. Super. Later.

Funny Story from a while back

let me paint a picture for you.

It's nearing five a.m. Black friday blitz is about to begin. The aisles of the local walmart are brimming. Desperate parents gather around a flat of highly desired toys, waiting eagerly for the frenzy to begin. A nervous associate stands guard over the precious cargo, it's plastic cocoon keeping the consumers at bay. The second tick by. And then comes the voice over the intercom. The moment everyone has been waiting for. The timid wal-mart employee begins to cut away the wrapping, exposing the care bears with in. The customers pounce. One man begins to ruthlessly rip away the offending plastic, tossing his stuffed bear booty into his awaiting buggy. But wait. He's not the only one hunting care bears this night. Out of no where an elbow connects with his face, sending him backward. The female attacker begins to unload his buggy in to her own. A vicious fight ensues. Black Friday has begun.

Where is a care bear stare when you really need one?

my Phonbias.

okay, so i'm sitting here typing to someone who may or may not exist when it occurs to me that I am chalk full of fears. okay so here is just a brief list of things that scare me or just kinda freak me out. Read them over and enjoy.

humming birds, showing my clevage, showing my stomach, sex with the lights on, trampolines, dogs, the ocean, crowds, theme parks, my neighbors, men, large machinery, electrical outlets, sharks, jelly fish, chicken bones, sickness, shaking hands with strangers, the mall, perfume, being home alone, random people talking to me, having to make an appointment with my adviser at school even though he's the same teacher i've had for all my accounting classes for the past 3 quarters, being considered sexy, looking like a bad mother, my kids being outside (our yard isn't fenced in yet (update, it is now, so they can go outside!) ), anyone else watching my kids, the constant nagging fear that someone somewhere is going to do something awful to one of my kids, that i look gangly and weird, that I am weird, that I can't get everything done that needs to be, that I'm just not enough, that i'm jaded, that I'll die before my kids can remember me,and lastly that someday i'll really tick my friends and family off and they'll leave.

so there you go, I'll be glad to elaborate on any of those should anyone request it. haha, i'm crazy. good to know eh?

Disclaimer

I reserve the right to be wrong, overly opinionated, and obnoxious. I also don't own the rights to anything and mean no copy right infringements by posting something that belongs to someone else. Also, if I bash a band you like, just remember that I am notorious for my 'poor' taste in music.

I just thought I ought to say all that before I whip out my soap box again, though I'm not doing that now. All right, later then

Other Mothers Part Duex

I was just reading through some other people's blogs and came across one that really kinda got to me. This person was bitching really about being a mom and how depressed and poor she is. I want to know why it is that women seem suprised by the fact that being a mom is hard work. Yes, when you spend all day cleaning the house the kids will come right behind you can mess it up again, yes they need at least three meals a day, yes they sit and cry when your busy. So what? You can teach them to help out..haha i'll have to finish this later,.. the baby is crying. see, it's normal

anyway..lets see where was i, oh here's my soap box, okay i'm ready. My oldest is only three and he's learning to fold clothes, load and unload the dishwash and can already pick up toys. He can't do these things with out help but he will eventually. My youngest is just destructive, but you just pick things up when he's done. Another year or so and he'll want to be helpful too.

My kids drive me insane sometimes. I'll loose my temper and yell at them. I am by no means a June Cleaver. But I love them, play with them, make time for them. I have homework every night, I work a little at school, I attempt to keep the house relatively clean, I cook most nights, and I like to read a book a week if I can. How do I do all this and still have time for my kids, I have no idea.

My point is that if you really want to be a good mom to your kids you can be.

My rant on bad mothers, Part 1

Mostly inspired by myspace. In no way is this intelligently written. Angry is not always eloquent.

First I would like to say that I can't spell and I'm all angry and stuff so it's just going to get worse.

Okay, I understand that a lot of people use the internet to hook up or whatever, thats cool, but damn if there aren't a lot of a$$ shots for profile pictures. I mean, have they f-d everyone within a 50 mile radius so now they have to post their skanchy a$$es on the net. Arrg. There should be a special place for people like that, oh wait, there is. Porn sites. You'd think that'd be the perfect place to hook up with a horny whatever. Or maybe they should just add another section to myspace. It could be myspace/raunchywhoreswithclap.com or something.

Now, that was really just a tangent off of what really ticks me off.

OH, I'm just so damn angry I can't think straight. Okay, If you get pregnant and don't want your baby, then don't keep it. Now I'm not saying go out and have an abortion. (of course if you're a psycho and really will keep your kid with you until you kill it later or raise another you, I will understand if you take that route.) I would like to say now that I do not have an official position on abortion. If your going to just leave your baby in a car seat until DFCS takes them away because they're 18 months old, their heads all whoppergawled sitting lopsided on their necks and they can't walk, then you should just walk away after birth. In GA you don't even have to sign any papers. Just deliver the baby (at the hospital, not the girls bath room) Stand up and walk out to your methed up boyfriend's car and leave. I know that it's really hard to be a parent but you can just decide that you've 'raised' your kid for 6 years or so, on and off, so now it's time for you. Especially when you've been smoking pot, whoring around, and randomly leaving your kid with your parents while you go off to 'find' yourself on the streets of a west coast city. You shouldn't just wake up one morning and say 'hey, the weed is cheaper on the west coast, I need some me time anyway.' and take your kid cross country away from his/her family, then marry a doped up boyfriend, have another baby, and hardly ever call your other kid , that was taken away, because you're too busy. All the while your kid is going through all the custody battles, wondering what he has done wrong to make you not stay here with him. There is of course a whole paternal side to this, but I'm on moms today.

Now, for the part that really ticks me off. There is a certain someone who, though she has had several children, most by the same man, insists on being a whore. I think this part really should stand out. Rule number one in the Lindsey's Big Book Of Rules :IF YOU ARE A MOTHER, YOU CAN NOT BE A WHORE. Rule number two. IF YOU ARE A WIFE, YOU CAN NOT BE A WHORE. mind you, these are just my rules, i just think everyone should follow them.

Bad mothers beware! I'll talk behind your back and make snide comments to your face and i'm not above calling dfcs.

And just as a closing thought. You are just a moron if you think your kids don't know what your up to, they may not understand it, but they will. And they do understand that you arn't acting the way you should.

a few more rules, though unnumbered, from my rule book

if you are pregnant, don't smoke. someday i'll work up the courage to punch a pregnant smoking mother right inthe ear.

Grandmothers are Grandmothers, not mothers in waiting. Take care of your own damn kids and striaghten up, crack whore.

love you all

bye

The Wayfarer Redemption by Sara Douglass

The Wayfarer Redemption by Sara Douglass

Oh, how I enjoyed this book. The first of six books The Wayfarer Redemption (which is actually the name of the whole set, in everywhere but the US the title of the book is Battle Axe) starts us on a truly epic adventure.

We begin, as do most adventures, with a prophecy. It has three parts and each of the first three books deals with a separate part. At first the story revolves around the Battle Axe, which is the leader of the army for the Seneschal. The Seneschal of course being the religious figures in Achar (the region in which people live). Our Battle Axe goes by the name Axis. He was raised by two brothers of the Seneschal, his mother having died in childbirth and his father being unknown. He of course has a deadly bad relationship with his half brother, whom was legitimate. The story, well the main part, starts simply enough. Axis has to take his half-brother's fiancé to him, you can see where that will be going. They are attacked along the way by a very powerful, well we'll say mage for now, and he evidently has a huge grudge against Axis. Also by now they have picked up two vary unusual brothers of the seneschal. Axis has to detour so Faraday (the fiancé and the odd brothers make their own way to Bornheld. Along the way we learn about two other races of peoples and meet a girl named Azure. She will be more important in book 2. Also we will meet Goldfeather who has a familial connection to Axis. There really is just so much that happens that it is hard to convey it all in a simple review.

The prophecy speaks of a Starman that will unite the three races of their world. Men have been living for years fearing the forbidden people, who turn out to be the Itari, a winged people, and the Avar, a short woods dwelling, stocky kind of people. They are both fairly peaceful races of beings, but the religion of the Acharites names them as forbidden. Now, I have barely even touched on that subject. In the book there is a whole your gods my gods disagreement.

NOTE: The book has some really developed religions and beliefs. If you're one of those people who think that all stories should only the religion of Christianity then this is not the story for you.

Sara Douglass has really developed the different religion and cultures. The depth of story is truly astounding. I believe if I tell you anymore it will really ruin the story for you. It has some fairly nice surprises in it. But be warned, this is not a fairy tell, well at least not the first three, not every thing ends up happily ever after. People die, people we like. The story takes some dark turns. But all in all everything ends up better.

You can read the first three books and stop if you like. They are story enough and really the last three while well written and really detailed, just really lacked something indefinable, and there was some serious cheese

Oh hell yeah!

That's freakin' Awesome! I love old people!

clipped from www.itv.com It is hoped that their charity single will help the band highlight the plight of elderly people who struggle to find a role in contemporary society Zimmers storm the charts 2.51, Mon Jun 4 2007 A group of pensioners have outperformed expectations, gliding to 26 in the singles chart with their version of The Who's My Generation. The band, The Zimmers, was formed as part of a BBC documentary to show the isolation felt by many of the nation's elderly. The 40-strong Zimmers are led by 90-year-old lead singer Alf. The help of U2 producer Mike Hedges and pop heavyweight Geoff Wonfor (who shot the Band Aid video) was also enlisted. It is hoped that their charity single will help them highlight the plight of elderly people who struggle to find a role in contemporary society. Profits from the sale of the single go to Age Concern.

First the dog eating, and now this

I'm not sure where people are learning to protest. Oxymoron Institute? Irony University?

First I came across a story about a man eating a dog to protest animal cruelty.

Now i find this: http://photoblog.msnbc.msn.com/archive/2007/05/27/205428.aspx

A bookstore owner is protesting America's lack of reading....by burning books.

Really people! come on! If i wanted to protest animal cruelty I'd make a sign or something, and then burn it so people will read it....craziness.

Reminds me of my neighbors

This makes me want to scream. Who leaves a 3 year old and her siblings alone in a resort room while they go out for dinner?

clipped from news.bbc.co.uk Madeleine disappeared on 3 May from the family's holiday apartment in Praia da Luz, a resort town in the Algarve, while her parents were at a nearby restaurant.

Overlooking Blantant Child molestation!

This is so deeply wrong, but do they call her a molester? A MONSTER! no. sex with a student. that's how they refer to it. She gets 10 years. That boys gets a life time of messed up'edness. Forget the racial side of this thing. I could care less. AN 11 YEAR OLD BOY WAS MOLESTED. NUFF SAID!

clipped from www.msnbc.msn.com S.C. teacher gets 10 years for sex with student Case involving white woman, black boy enflamed racial tensions LAURENS, S.C. - A former elementary school teacher pleaded guilty Friday to having sex with an 11-year-old student and was sentenced to 10 years in prison, a prosecutor said. Wendie Ann Schweikert, 37, was arrested in May 2006 and charged with criminal sexual conduct with a minor and committing a lewd act on a minor. The case inflamed racial tensions because the student is black, and some black residents had argued that the teacher was getting lenient treatment by the courts. She pleaded guilty and read a three-page apology to the victim, his family, E.B. Morse Elementary School and the community, Laurens County prosecutor Jerry Peace said.

Continued

clipped from www.msnbc.msn.com She pleaded guilty and read a three-page apology to the victim, his family, E.B. Morse Elementary School and the community, Laurens County prosecutor Jerry Peace said. Peace said that he offered a plea deal that would have recommended 14 years in prison for the former fifth-grade teacher, but that she refused and decided to take her chances with the judge. "It's not an inappropriate sentence," Peace said. "I respect the judge's decision." A phone message left for Schweikert's attorney, Chip Howe, was not immediately returned. The boy's family was satisfied with the sentence, Peace said. Some black residents were upset by the handling of the case and another involving a white teacher and black student, particularly the release of the teachers on bail. They said the cases show how crimes by whites against blacks are treated less seriously than other offenses. Copyright 2007 The Associated Press. All rights reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or redistributed.

Strong as I feel

I'm really getting tired of all my ups and downs. Yeah, even if some of them are self induced. I'm still tired of them. How can on one side of my life everything be going swimmingly (I'm loving getting to spend time with quality friends and have intelligent adult conversation and time with my boys who are just growing and getting smarter everyday) and on the other, I have people stressing me out (either friends/family or the doctors). Why does everything take so long?! Really, they shouldn't be allowed to make you sit on pins and needles for a month or so before you know if your sick or not. I don't feel sick, but then, unless it just got out of control I wouldn't. IF i have something wrong. and there in lies my stress. I don't even know. And no, if i haven't already told you whats going on, I'm not going to. for one big reason, i don't want everyone worrying about the specifics, asking me if I've heard anything, etc. Sure, if and when i get a diagnosis I'll let the world know. but at this point it's all scary speculation.
I've decided I'm really going to put forth effort into learning to play guitar. I've printed out the tabs to a song i want to learn, and i have a book of chords on it's way via a friend (supposedly). so, maybe a year from now, i'll be a rock star. lol. we know thats not happening.
I've also cut myself off spending wise. sorry friends, i don't have money to hang out, buy you cigarettes and dinner, or whatever else i normally would do cos i heart you all. I'm so far in debt that i feel hopeless. well, not completely hopeless obviously since I'm working on undoing it.
Basically, once I've got my budget worked out, I'm short about 300 a month. that's a lot, i know. so, not sure what I'm going to do about that. i need to get out of the hole though. so, it will help not spending time and money on/with friends, though i do enjoy that alot.
I might get to see a movie this week. it's a big might though. I love going to movies.
I'll write more, maybe today. definitely tomorrow.
Love you all.
Lindsey

Tonight, for the first time in a long while

I am actually going to celebrate my birthday. not just go spend money and justify it with my birthday. I have not celebrated since I turned 18, 6 years ago tomorrow. That changes tonight though. My friends band (Death Valley Driver, out of Chattanooga) is playing at my favorite Watering hole "Ziggy's". they even put that it's my day on their flyer (well, one version of it anyway!). I don't count on many people actually coming to celebrate me, but i'm sure as hell going to pretend that's what they are there for! I'm even going to be able to get Patrick in and all he has to do is man a camera! After the show we are gonna go to some chicks graduation party ( i don't mind sharing and butting in on other peoples parties!) I'm sure I'll get at least tipsy while over there. I think someone else wants us to go to their house too, but i just don't see how we can fit it all in. When i get home from work i have to redye my hair too. and that takes forever! plus i need to fix my bangs. stupid things and their jaggedness! Anyway. I even have a new outfit to wear tonight. i'm gonna look purdy!
Then tomorrow i'm gonna help out at a benefit for Nathan! I was going to help set up, but i just don't really see that happening. I'm thinking more of showing up around noon and staying for clean up. Then i just have to procure dinner and it's off to a look outs game! Nothing like free tickets and it's something i can do with friends, and thats really all i want out of a birthday anyway. Sunday i'll get my kids back early and go over to moms to celebrate with my family. that's going to be fun!
I miss jessica too. I haven't seen her enough lately. I've been busy, and she's got to take care of nathan, and i don't want to intrude on that. Nathan's super cool too. I'm enjoying all of my new/renewed friendships. It's funny how lonely you realize you were once you have good friends again. Hopefully i get to keep them!
you know, i love blogging. even if there is no point what so ever. makes me feel good. i don't really read the clever analytical one's anyway. i want to know people's personalities not thier politics. but that's just me!
Hugs and such,
Lindsey