:)

Help find this child. The police need to know who she is so they can save her. If she looks familar to you please call. It a Police station in navada. MSN gave this contact info:

If you have any information that might help police in this case, you are urged to call Crime Stoppers. That number is 385-5555.

You can view the story:
http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,298016,00.html
and
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/20973893/

Heroes Season Premier

Warning, if you didn't watch it, don't read this...I spoil everything!


Wow, did you see that last night? Was it everything we hoped for all summer?

No, but it was still pretty good. I'm a bit disappointed that none of the characters stayed dead. I understand that it doesn't feel good to have your favorite character axed, but on the other hand, it feels way to soap opera-ie to keep raising them from their dooms.

I'm really interested to see how the Hiro thing pans out. I think it's already horribly obvious where that is going. But, I love Hiro so I'm very happy he is getting his very own "coming to" adventure.

As for what occurred in Ireland (it was Ireland right?), sure, we all hoped that the situation was not what it was, but it made sense. That development last night, sure you can pull it off logically, but I don't know. I feel cheated a dramatic death.

Poor Hiro's Dad, he was finally coming back to the light side. Oh well. And Mrs. Petrelli, Oh how I will enjoy her demise.

Lets see...Sorry about Matt and his wife, I guess it had to happen though, who wants to live with a man that can read your mind? besides, that hussy cheated on him.
And beautiful, beautiful Suresh (spelling? eh, it's a blog, sound it out). Clever little thing working with Mr. Bennet.

OMG Claire will have a high school romance with someone who flies just like her daddy! I guess they needed to draw in the teenie boppers. Funny if it turns out to be her brother (Nathan you scallywag!)

Speaking of Nathan, you should be dead too! Where the hell is my tragedy?!

I like the new characters. Hope everyone kept up with the graphic novels over the summer!

Sylar......I'm so pissed you aren't dead...that's what one of the commercials indicated.
He was a great one season psycho. After that its redundant and annoying. I'm ready for that super bad, clever master mind that molly (or whatever her name is) sees in her sleep.

And really, two guys that are trying to save the world have time to raise a little girl? So I suppose halfway through the season we'll get a lesson on DFACS and how to keep a kind of adopted kid.

I don't know. I'm still excited over the season, and I still really enjoyed last night's premier, but I can't help but feel that the sophomore slump is looming ahead, ready to strike. I hope the writers have some serious cadbury bunnies in their hats.

Temporary Post Until I get home to do the whole myspace thing.

If you opened it, you have to do it! Now start. (No, you don't, not really. And if you don't, the boogie man won't bother you, Promise)

19 LOVE QUESTiONS

1. Four Names You Go By: (Love question?)
A. Lindsey
B. Mommy
C. Sugarfoot
D. Selfish Bitch (oh I feel the love off that one )


2. Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now: (again, this is love related?)
A. gray pants, pinstriped with pink and black
B. Pink collared shirt.
C. Pink and gold flats

[01] Do you still have feelings for your ex?
A: Not really, I shut those things off. I mean hell, I probably imagined them in the first place knowing my crazy ass.

[02] Have you ever been given roses?
A: yeah, that's standard dating fare.

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
A: garsh, I don't know. The Princess Bride.

[04] How many times have you honestly been in love?
A: I love my kids. If it feels anything like that only towards a man, no, not quite. I love, but so far, hindsight shows I wasn't "in" love.

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
A: No. I think you could match yourself up with any number of people. It's a right place right time sort of deal. If you live in china, more than likely you'll find someone to love, that doesn't mean that if you had been in America instead of china that day that you couldn't have met someone else that would make you equally as happy. Too many people for the whole soul mate business.

[06] Whats your current problem?
A: Same old same old. Money.

[07] Have you ever had your heart broken?
A: No. I've been emotionally torn up for a bit, but nothing that i would say is heartbroken.

[08] Long Distance Relationships?
A: They don't work if you are both broke and only one person is willing to travel. awe, hell, they don't freakin' work anyway.

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
A: It happens on occasion. If you are committed to your exclusive relationship, you cool it with that friend for a while to reduce temptation. Why even put yourself in a situation where you could loose, even if you don't. I i know what I mean even if you don't.

[10] Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
A: Yeah.

[11] How many kids do you want to have?
A: I don't know. Thats and idea i like to toy with, but will not seriously pursue through thought until i have my finances a little less....financigooie.

[12] What is your favorite color(s)?
A: I refuse to pick one. Yes, I'm the sort of person that lives on the fence. Deal with it or get over it, i'm not budging.

[14] Do you believe you only have one true love?
A: I believe i explained that with the whole "soul mate thing".

[15] Imagine you're 79 and your spouse just died, would you get re-married?
A: arg. Probably not. It's more fun to date anyway.

[16] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
A: You mean like actually attracted to it in a sexual way? 15? or just boys are different than girls? cos that be like 2.

[17] What song do you want to hear at your wedding?
A: I don't know. That's not really something I think about. I'm not all that sentimental.

[18] Do you know someone who likes you?
A: and here you claimed this was a love survey. liar. yeah. people like me, some of them. others can't stand me. fine by me. one side out weighs the other. and either way, i'm fine with me and so is my family.

[19] Do you like anyone?
A: Billy Davis is the schools hottest quarterback, i totally like him! Seriously....I enjoy the company of many people in a completely platonic way. if that wasn't the answer you wanted, you should have asked your question better. "Say your right words"

Not mine, obviously, but a good lesson

The sun was shining on the sea,
Shining with all his might:
He did his very best to make
The billows smooth and bright--
And this was odd, because it was
The middle of the night.

The moon was shining sulkily,
Because she thought the sun
Had got no business to be there
After the day was done--
"It's very rude of him," she said,
"To come and spoil the fun!"

The sea was wet as wet could be,
The sands were dry as dry.
You could not see a cloud, because
No cloud was in the sky:
No birds were flying overhead--
There were no birds to fly.

The Walrus and the Carpenter
Were walking close at hand;
They wept like anything to see
Such quantities of sand:
"If this were only cleared away,"
They said, "it would be grand!"

"If seven maids with seven mops
Swept it for half a year.
Do you suppose," the Walrus said,
"That they could get it clear?"
"I doubt it," said the Carpenter,
And shed a bitter tear.

"O Oysters, come and walk with us!"
The Walrus did beseech.
"A pleasant walk, a pleasant talk,
Along the briny beach:
We cannot do with more than four,
To give a hand to each."

The eldest Oyster looked at him,
But never a word he said:
The eldest Oyster winked his eye,
And shook his heavy head--
Meaning to say he did not choose
To leave the oyster-bed.

But four young Oysters hurried up,
All eager for the treat:
Their coats were brushed, their faces washed,
Their shoes were clean and neat--
And this was odd, because, you know,
They hadn't any feet.

Four other Oysters followed them,
And yet another four;
And thick and fast they came at last,
And more, and more, and more--
All hopping through the frothy waves,
And scrambling to the shore.

The Walrus and the Carpenter
Walked on a mile or so,
And then they rested on a rock
Conveniently low:
And all the little Oysters stood
And waited in a row.

"The time has come," the Walrus said,
"To talk of many things:
Of shoes--and ships--and sealing-wax--
Of cabbages--and kings--
And why the sea is boiling hot--
And whether pigs have wings."

"But wait a bit," the Oysters cried,
"Before we have our chat;
For some of us are out of breath,
And all of us are fat!"
"No hurry!" said the Carpenter.
They thanked him much for that.

"A loaf of bread," the Walrus said,
"Is what we chiefly need:
Pepper and vinegar besides
Are very good indeed--
Now if you're ready, Oysters dear,
We can begin to feed."

"But not on us!" the Oysters cried,
Turning a little blue.
"After such kindness, that would be
A dismal thing to do!"
"The night is fine," the Walrus said.
"Do you admire the view?

"It was so kind of you to come!
And you are very nice!"
The Carpenter said nothing but
"Cut us another slice:
I wish you were not quite so deaf--
I've had to ask you twice!"

"It seems a shame," the Walrus said,
"To play them such a trick,
After we've brought them out so far,
And made them trot so quick!"
The Carpenter said nothing but
"The butter's spread too thick!"

"I weep for you," the Walrus said:
"I deeply sympathize."
With sobs and tears he sorted out
Those of the largest size,
Holding his pocket-handkerchief
Before his streaming eyes.

"O Oysters," said the Carpenter,
"You've had a pleasant run!
Shall we be trotting home again?'
But answer came there none--
And this was scarcely odd, because
They'd eaten every one.

Excuse me while I blend in with the scenery

More and more I come across people who want to be "the next big thing"
Name in lights, best sellers on the shelves, videos on MTV, fans desperately searching google for a new picture, men drooling at their heels, women flinging panties at their feet, ect.

Sure, the money would be nice. But even then, would it? I can't imagine how stressful those kinds of lives must actually be. How unhealthy they are.

I'm not sure why I don't join in with that fame seeking frame of thought. I believe we should all shine and succeed in life, but is that really success?

I can't help but wonder what the lives of histories most famous artists, musicians, writers, political minds, and war time heroes were REALLY like. Not just the way history was reported but the way it really was. Did they consciously think about being famous? or did they just do what they loved and were lucky enough to be recognized for it? Where they even really recognized for it while living? Oh sure some of them did. Little snippets of glory here and there for some and more so for others.

Was fame back then like fame is now? Surely not. Seems like anyone can be famous these days. Specifically the trashier you are. Yes, there are non-trashy famous people that do great things for the world, but even some of them went through their trashy phase (Angelina Jolie).

So, I don't understand this drive. This lust for the spot light. But I also understand that no two people are exactly the same, so I would never expect some people to be happy with the same things that I'm happy with.

What makes me happy? This question has been raised to me recently by an un-named source. Apparently some people think I'm not happy or am hard to make happy.

I don't need people to make me happy. I make me happy. I find joy in other people but don't expect them to do things for the explicit reason of my happiness.

I find joy in impressing my mother. I may never have my book published, and I don't really care if I ever do, but my mom loves what I've written and that is a far greater award for me than if I were a New York Times best seller for 92 weeks in a row. I know my mother, there is no greater book critic I'm sure. But she likes what I write. And she isn't the mom that just gives praise simply because I'm her child.

I find joy in simply sitting with my children. Just their existence is joy. I worry for them, I work for them, I live for them. And that is as much as I could ever want. The love that they have brought into my world is beyond words, beyond feeling almost, certainly beyond understanding. A love so strong and so bold that at times I wonder if it won't burn out my soul with its brilliance.
That is enough for me.

I find joy in eating dinner with my aunt and uncle. In making them proud. For there are no two other people in my life that have shown me what hard work, proper planning, and real marriage are.

I find joy in my friends. Though friends do come and go and I no longer invest myself quite as much as I used to, I find enjoyment and peace in their company. I am learning to save myself the pain and frustration that often comes with friendship by keeping things casual. No more "best friends" or only one or two friends that I spend my free time with. I suppose you give up the idea of a sole bosom companion as you get older.

I find joy in life in general. How could I see my friends and family if I'm blinded by the spot light?

Where am I going with this? Just that while it's fine for others to seek that center stage position, I'm more than happy down stage among the throng of extras, for my place and effect in this world may not be wide spread, it has its effect none the less. What care I if I'm remembered by people 500 years from now. My boys know I love them, what greater fame could I ever hope to achieve?

RIP Patcat

Okay, so this the the second time we've been through this.

Date: Sep 17, 2007 11:36 PM
Subject: RIP Patrick
Body: For those of you who do not know, Patrick was hospitalized early this morning for intestinal pains. After x-rays an infection was found in his kidneys. Rush surgery was admitted. Unfortunately he had allergic reaction to his anesthesia. He could not be saved. I don't really know what else to say, but I will keep you all posted.

RIP buddy...you will be missed :(

Of course the first time it was a single prank on one victim. This time, we'll call him Tom, Tom decided to prank anyone willing to fall for a myspace bulletin.

I got a call at midnight because some one fell for it.

Granted neither Patrick nor myself knew of this prank, but come on! First, do you really think that we are going to have a third party post a bulletin on myspace? And if someone did, don't you think that they'd be a little more heart felt? Maybe I can only see the ruse because I knew for a fact that Patrick was fine.

The most annoying part was who called. What were the odds that they really thought I'd pick up for them? After what has happened between that party, Patrick, and myself? No. I had Patrick call back simply to prevent more phone calls.

So, There you go people. Patrick is very much alive, getting ready to start a great new job, and as far as I know, generally healthy and happy.

But I'd really like to thank everyone's concern for his well being when he really was badly sick.

You care if he's dead, but not so much if he might need someone to drop off some chicken soup.

Now that's devotion.

I like to feel like i'm being interviewed.

That's why I keep doing these inane myspace questionnaires. Who comes up with these anyway?

57 Girl Confessions ( I personally don't think that this will be that insightful, but what the heck.)

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? Yes'm, it is cute.

2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress? Well, right now i'm wanting to buy a big poofy short party dress, so i guess i'm somewhere in the middle.

3. What would you do if you received a long love letter? Read it, try not to laugh, feel awkward the rest of the day.

4. Group dates or single dates? Group dates. You can always still go home with your date with out the rest of the gang...unless you are into that kind of thing...

5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends? Yes, but I don't really ever have that problem. I'm pretty well one of the guys anyway, so they can fart, burp, swear, ogle breasts, whatever.

6. Are diamonds a girl’s best friend? No, but that's not to say I wouldn't like to make one's acquaintance.

7. Is your hair up or down today? It's up because i didn't have time to straighten it.

8. Do you straighten your hair? I do when i want it straight....

9. Favorite mascara? That one that i steal from my sisters...you know...whatever they bought that week.

10. Do you get your nails done? I've tried it. I'm not good at the up keep.

11. Small or large purses? Large enough to carry a small Winnebago

12. In your purse, what are your must haves? Drivers License and other various info cards, phone, keys, lip gloss, lighter...dunno, what ever ends up in there.

13. Jeans or sweats? Jeans, I get to hot in sweats.

14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that’s uncomfortable? That's really a pointless question. We have all worn, at some point in our lives, some thing uncomfortable. However, as a general rule, no I dress in clothes that are comfortable.

15. Do you text message a lot? No, periodically, but not enough to come close to "a lot"

16. What would you do if you got pregnant? The same thing I did the last two times I got pregnant. Did I mention that my kids are awesome?

17. What’s your favorite color? The artist in me wont allow me to choose a favorite color. I see the validity of all colors.

18. Heels or flats? I mostly wear flats even though I love heels because I feel self conscious of my height.

19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie? Not really, no.

20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on? Oh yeah. I look like crap, but i'll go out.

21. Walmart or Target? I go to wal-mart only because it is closer. I prefer Target though.

22. Do you wear collared shirts? Almost daily to work.

23. Do you like preppy boys? I like funny guys. i don't really care what style they choose to abide to.

24. Do you think lip gloss is the best!? Eh, it's alright if you remember to put it on, but it's alright if you forget.

25. Do you own any big sunglasses? I do. Not just because of the style but they actually do keep the sun off my eyes better.

26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? if i didn't lolly gag? 10 minutes unless i have to dry my hair then 20 minutes.

27. Do you like to wear band-aids? only when it stops the flow of blood...

28. Do you like skater boys? Again, I like funny guys, if they also skate, well, that's fine too.

29. Do you often wish there was something you could change? There are many somethings I wish I could change.

30. Gold or silver? Silver

31. Do you like to receive flowers? I do indeed. But just as a casual "I got these for you today" kind of thing, not in a "to show my deep, true, powerful love for you" because that makes me uncomfortable.

32. Do you like surfer boys? boys boys boys....gah, I'm starting to think I should have taken this survey when i was 8.

33. Do you dress up for the holidays? For church or something, yes, i do.

34. Do you like to wear dresseses? I love to. I just wish i had a reason to wear them!

35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you? guys don't, particular males do. but the degree varies.

36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy? yeah

37. Would you date a guy shorter than you? No.

38. Do you like to hold hands? eh, it's alright.

39. What is the youngest you would date? apparently its 3 years..

40. What is the oldest you would date? 4 years. but it's all relative to how much i like the guy.

41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy? if he's funny...how many more times will i have to reiterate that.

42. Is it hott when guys sweat? no, not really.

43. What is the best feature in a guy?A sense of humor. and nice eyes.

44. Do you like making eye contact? not really.

46. Would you kill for chocolate? Probably not. Murder is awful serious and i can get chocolate pretty cheap.

47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy? no. not even on my wedding day. just got ready a few hours before.

48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping? about a 5.

49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show? why would i do that...it's just tv

50. Do you yell a lot? Gosh no.

51. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work? That wouldn't be very professional now would it?

52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy? I don't recall doing that, but i'm not going to claim its out of the question.

53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems? NOOOOO....

54. What makeup could you not live w/ out? eyeliner.

55. Do you fall in love easily?I think i used to, or used to trick myself into thinking thats what i was doing. Not now. I care about people easily and I love people easily, that will never change, but actually "falling in love" I want to take my time about.

56. Do you have cramps? not really.

57. Do you think you have the bestest friend/friend(s) ever? n/a.

My space bulletins

I like them as a general rule as long as they aren't threatening. For example, I really hate the ones that say "I'm checking to see who my real friends are on here, repost this or I'm going to delete you". Well, first off, hopefully, your real friends are the ones with whom you have contact with out side of myspace and you'll already know not to delete them. Secondly, if you have to threaten to remove people just to be sure they still want to be your friend you may need to seek some kind of therapy. And if I am on the end that is expected to repost that, go right a head and delete me. there are several million people on myspace, any one of which can take your slot on my friends list. I won't be heart broken.

Another one that bothers me. It ends up something like "Repost this if you love god and want to prove it". I'm sure the lord is up there keeping tallies of who reposts that. My feelings and beliefs about god are not going to be summed up by a short zealous bulletin.

The last one is more something that bothers me on a different level than the others. The one's previously mentioned just annoy me. This one, it bothers me deeply. The one with picture after picture of abused children and it reads "stop child abuse". I'm sorry, I really don't see putting pictures of those suffering children out there like that. And it doesn't even offer any tips for prevention. No lists of what to look for, who to contact, available resources. If it is just asking me not to beat my own kids it needn't have bothered.

On another note, I really enjoy my on-line journal/blogger thing. I know many people do. I'm just glad that mine really only appears here.