old music survey i did a while back

mmmm music survey (drool)

1.Of all the bands/artists in your cd/record collection, which one do you own the most albums by?
the smashing pumpkins

2. What was the last song you listened to?
the thong song, I dont have to explain anything to you!

3. What's in your record/CD player right now?
the darkness, permission to land

4. What song pretty much sums you up?
i believe in a thing called loveseriously I have no idea. Pour some sugar on me? I like big butts? The possiblities are endless.

5. What's your favorite local band?
the rounders and the orange julians

6. What was the last show you attended?
some show at rythem and brews. The bouncer said that it would sound like a combination of dave matthews and pearl jam. I should have known better but I just had to hear what that train wreak sounded like. Dave Jam = Not Good.

7. What was the greatest show you've ever been to?
2. hankIII & the reverend horton heat in Athens, sweet moses that was good stuff

8. What's the worst band you've ever seen in concert?
see question six. Of course there was this really awful band called f.o.p. once (just teasin guys)

9. What band do you love musically but hate the members of?
metallica

10. What is the most musically involved you have ever been?
i dated a couple of band guys in high school. I was also in the high school marching band in 8th grade and my freshman year.

11. What shows are you looking forward to?
Seeing the Orange Julians, finally and without my kids getting sick last damn minute

12. What is your favorite band shirt?
I dont think I have any anymore..sometimes I sleep in my husbands metallica shirts

13. What musician would you like to hang out with for a day?
david bowie

14. What musician would you like to be in love with for a day?
Ill pass thanks.

15. Pat Benatar or Cyndi Lauper?
Pat! Always Pat.

16. Sabbath or solo Ozzy?
eh, Im not so into either as to have a preference. Either works for me.

17. Commodores or solo Lionel Ritchie?
..see 16..

18. Punk rock, hip hop or heavy metal?
3. metal, sweet sweet metalof course all kinds of rock are goodness to me

19. Doesn't Primus suck?
suck on this.Im told this is the proper response. Sorry, I never really jumped on the primus boat.

20. Name 5 flawless albums:
I have no bloody idea.

21. Did you know that filling out this survey makes you a music geek?
maybe Im just a partial geek, I dont know nearly as much stuff as I should.

22. What was the greatest decade for music?
80s

23. How many music-related videos/DVDs do you own?
one

24. Do you like Journey?
why not?

25. Don't try to pretend you don't!
what, are you going to stop me, I retract my answer to 24, I hate journey. What are you gonna do about it?! Thats what I thought.

26. What is your favorite movie soundtrack?
the nightmare before Christmas and the phantom of the opera, yeah I know thats two, wanna rumble?

27. What was your last musical phase?
whats today..

28. What's the crappiest CD/record/etc?
you got what I need..come on sing along, you know you want to.

29. Do you prefer vinyl or CDs?
cds cos I can play themI dont own a record playerI just dont ok!

30. All totaled, how much do you spend on music a MONTH?
oh, so this was a survey for people who dont have kids and a mortgage. I see, sorry to waste your time.

MAKANI

so there is this really really funny artist, mostly she does harry potter stuff, anyway she goes by makani. She's super talented and I suggest that everyone who has any idea what the harry potter world is about go and check her out. go to http://acciobrain.ligermagic.com/ so, there ya go. Super funny. Super. Later.

Funny Story from a while back

let me paint a picture for you.

It's nearing five a.m. Black friday blitz is about to begin. The aisles of the local walmart are brimming. Desperate parents gather around a flat of highly desired toys, waiting eagerly for the frenzy to begin. A nervous associate stands guard over the precious cargo, it's plastic cocoon keeping the consumers at bay. The second tick by. And then comes the voice over the intercom. The moment everyone has been waiting for. The timid wal-mart employee begins to cut away the wrapping, exposing the care bears with in. The customers pounce. One man begins to ruthlessly rip away the offending plastic, tossing his stuffed bear booty into his awaiting buggy. But wait. He's not the only one hunting care bears this night. Out of no where an elbow connects with his face, sending him backward. The female attacker begins to unload his buggy in to her own. A vicious fight ensues. Black Friday has begun.

Where is a care bear stare when you really need one?

my Phonbias.

okay, so i'm sitting here typing to someone who may or may not exist when it occurs to me that I am chalk full of fears. okay so here is just a brief list of things that scare me or just kinda freak me out. Read them over and enjoy.

humming birds, showing my clevage, showing my stomach, sex with the lights on, trampolines, dogs, the ocean, crowds, theme parks, my neighbors, men, large machinery, electrical outlets, sharks, jelly fish, chicken bones, sickness, shaking hands with strangers, the mall, perfume, being home alone, random people talking to me, having to make an appointment with my adviser at school even though he's the same teacher i've had for all my accounting classes for the past 3 quarters, being considered sexy, looking like a bad mother, my kids being outside (our yard isn't fenced in yet (update, it is now, so they can go outside!) ), anyone else watching my kids, the constant nagging fear that someone somewhere is going to do something awful to one of my kids, that i look gangly and weird, that I am weird, that I can't get everything done that needs to be, that I'm just not enough, that i'm jaded, that I'll die before my kids can remember me,and lastly that someday i'll really tick my friends and family off and they'll leave.

so there you go, I'll be glad to elaborate on any of those should anyone request it. haha, i'm crazy. good to know eh?

Disclaimer

I reserve the right to be wrong, overly opinionated, and obnoxious. I also don't own the rights to anything and mean no copy right infringements by posting something that belongs to someone else. Also, if I bash a band you like, just remember that I am notorious for my 'poor' taste in music.

I just thought I ought to say all that before I whip out my soap box again, though I'm not doing that now. All right, later then

Other Mothers Part Duex

I was just reading through some other people's blogs and came across one that really kinda got to me. This person was bitching really about being a mom and how depressed and poor she is. I want to know why it is that women seem suprised by the fact that being a mom is hard work. Yes, when you spend all day cleaning the house the kids will come right behind you can mess it up again, yes they need at least three meals a day, yes they sit and cry when your busy. So what? You can teach them to help out..haha i'll have to finish this later,.. the baby is crying. see, it's normal

anyway..lets see where was i, oh here's my soap box, okay i'm ready. My oldest is only three and he's learning to fold clothes, load and unload the dishwash and can already pick up toys. He can't do these things with out help but he will eventually. My youngest is just destructive, but you just pick things up when he's done. Another year or so and he'll want to be helpful too.

My kids drive me insane sometimes. I'll loose my temper and yell at them. I am by no means a June Cleaver. But I love them, play with them, make time for them. I have homework every night, I work a little at school, I attempt to keep the house relatively clean, I cook most nights, and I like to read a book a week if I can. How do I do all this and still have time for my kids, I have no idea.

My point is that if you really want to be a good mom to your kids you can be.

My rant on bad mothers, Part 1

Mostly inspired by myspace. In no way is this intelligently written. Angry is not always eloquent.

First I would like to say that I can't spell and I'm all angry and stuff so it's just going to get worse.

Okay, I understand that a lot of people use the internet to hook up or whatever, thats cool, but damn if there aren't a lot of a$$ shots for profile pictures. I mean, have they f-d everyone within a 50 mile radius so now they have to post their skanchy a$$es on the net. Arrg. There should be a special place for people like that, oh wait, there is. Porn sites. You'd think that'd be the perfect place to hook up with a horny whatever. Or maybe they should just add another section to myspace. It could be myspace/raunchywhoreswithclap.com or something.

Now, that was really just a tangent off of what really ticks me off.

OH, I'm just so damn angry I can't think straight. Okay, If you get pregnant and don't want your baby, then don't keep it. Now I'm not saying go out and have an abortion. (of course if you're a psycho and really will keep your kid with you until you kill it later or raise another you, I will understand if you take that route.) I would like to say now that I do not have an official position on abortion. If your going to just leave your baby in a car seat until DFCS takes them away because they're 18 months old, their heads all whoppergawled sitting lopsided on their necks and they can't walk, then you should just walk away after birth. In GA you don't even have to sign any papers. Just deliver the baby (at the hospital, not the girls bath room) Stand up and walk out to your methed up boyfriend's car and leave. I know that it's really hard to be a parent but you can just decide that you've 'raised' your kid for 6 years or so, on and off, so now it's time for you. Especially when you've been smoking pot, whoring around, and randomly leaving your kid with your parents while you go off to 'find' yourself on the streets of a west coast city. You shouldn't just wake up one morning and say 'hey, the weed is cheaper on the west coast, I need some me time anyway.' and take your kid cross country away from his/her family, then marry a doped up boyfriend, have another baby, and hardly ever call your other kid , that was taken away, because you're too busy. All the while your kid is going through all the custody battles, wondering what he has done wrong to make you not stay here with him. There is of course a whole paternal side to this, but I'm on moms today.

Now, for the part that really ticks me off. There is a certain someone who, though she has had several children, most by the same man, insists on being a whore. I think this part really should stand out. Rule number one in the Lindsey's Big Book Of Rules :IF YOU ARE A MOTHER, YOU CAN NOT BE A WHORE. Rule number two. IF YOU ARE A WIFE, YOU CAN NOT BE A WHORE. mind you, these are just my rules, i just think everyone should follow them.

Bad mothers beware! I'll talk behind your back and make snide comments to your face and i'm not above calling dfcs.

And just as a closing thought. You are just a moron if you think your kids don't know what your up to, they may not understand it, but they will. And they do understand that you arn't acting the way you should.

a few more rules, though unnumbered, from my rule book

if you are pregnant, don't smoke. someday i'll work up the courage to punch a pregnant smoking mother right inthe ear.

Grandmothers are Grandmothers, not mothers in waiting. Take care of your own damn kids and striaghten up, crack whore.

love you all

bye

The Wayfarer Redemption by Sara Douglass

The Wayfarer Redemption by Sara Douglass

Oh, how I enjoyed this book. The first of six books The Wayfarer Redemption (which is actually the name of the whole set, in everywhere but the US the title of the book is Battle Axe) starts us on a truly epic adventure.

We begin, as do most adventures, with a prophecy. It has three parts and each of the first three books deals with a separate part. At first the story revolves around the Battle Axe, which is the leader of the army for the Seneschal. The Seneschal of course being the religious figures in Achar (the region in which people live). Our Battle Axe goes by the name Axis. He was raised by two brothers of the Seneschal, his mother having died in childbirth and his father being unknown. He of course has a deadly bad relationship with his half brother, whom was legitimate. The story, well the main part, starts simply enough. Axis has to take his half-brother's fiancé to him, you can see where that will be going. They are attacked along the way by a very powerful, well we'll say mage for now, and he evidently has a huge grudge against Axis. Also by now they have picked up two vary unusual brothers of the seneschal. Axis has to detour so Faraday (the fiancé and the odd brothers make their own way to Bornheld. Along the way we learn about two other races of peoples and meet a girl named Azure. She will be more important in book 2. Also we will meet Goldfeather who has a familial connection to Axis. There really is just so much that happens that it is hard to convey it all in a simple review.

The prophecy speaks of a Starman that will unite the three races of their world. Men have been living for years fearing the forbidden people, who turn out to be the Itari, a winged people, and the Avar, a short woods dwelling, stocky kind of people. They are both fairly peaceful races of beings, but the religion of the Acharites names them as forbidden. Now, I have barely even touched on that subject. In the book there is a whole your gods my gods disagreement.

NOTE: The book has some really developed religions and beliefs. If you're one of those people who think that all stories should only the religion of Christianity then this is not the story for you.

Sara Douglass has really developed the different religion and cultures. The depth of story is truly astounding. I believe if I tell you anymore it will really ruin the story for you. It has some fairly nice surprises in it. But be warned, this is not a fairy tell, well at least not the first three, not every thing ends up happily ever after. People die, people we like. The story takes some dark turns. But all in all everything ends up better.

You can read the first three books and stop if you like. They are story enough and really the last three while well written and really detailed, just really lacked something indefinable, and there was some serious cheese

Oh hell yeah!

That's freakin' Awesome! I love old people!

clipped from www.itv.com It is hoped that their charity single will help the band highlight the plight of elderly people who struggle to find a role in contemporary society Zimmers storm the charts 2.51, Mon Jun 4 2007 A group of pensioners have outperformed expectations, gliding to 26 in the singles chart with their version of The Who's My Generation. The band, The Zimmers, was formed as part of a BBC documentary to show the isolation felt by many of the nation's elderly. The 40-strong Zimmers are led by 90-year-old lead singer Alf. The help of U2 producer Mike Hedges and pop heavyweight Geoff Wonfor (who shot the Band Aid video) was also enlisted. It is hoped that their charity single will help them highlight the plight of elderly people who struggle to find a role in contemporary society. Profits from the sale of the single go to Age Concern.

First the dog eating, and now this

I'm not sure where people are learning to protest. Oxymoron Institute? Irony University?

First I came across a story about a man eating a dog to protest animal cruelty.

Now i find this: http://photoblog.msnbc.msn.com/archive/2007/05/27/205428.aspx

A bookstore owner is protesting America's lack of reading....by burning books.

Really people! come on! If i wanted to protest animal cruelty I'd make a sign or something, and then burn it so people will read it....craziness.

Reminds me of my neighbors

This makes me want to scream. Who leaves a 3 year old and her siblings alone in a resort room while they go out for dinner?

clipped from news.bbc.co.uk Madeleine disappeared on 3 May from the family's holiday apartment in Praia da Luz, a resort town in the Algarve, while her parents were at a nearby restaurant.

Overlooking Blantant Child molestation!

This is so deeply wrong, but do they call her a molester? A MONSTER! no. sex with a student. that's how they refer to it. She gets 10 years. That boys gets a life time of messed up'edness. Forget the racial side of this thing. I could care less. AN 11 YEAR OLD BOY WAS MOLESTED. NUFF SAID!

clipped from www.msnbc.msn.com S.C. teacher gets 10 years for sex with student Case involving white woman, black boy enflamed racial tensions LAURENS, S.C. - A former elementary school teacher pleaded guilty Friday to having sex with an 11-year-old student and was sentenced to 10 years in prison, a prosecutor said. Wendie Ann Schweikert, 37, was arrested in May 2006 and charged with criminal sexual conduct with a minor and committing a lewd act on a minor. The case inflamed racial tensions because the student is black, and some black residents had argued that the teacher was getting lenient treatment by the courts. She pleaded guilty and read a three-page apology to the victim, his family, E.B. Morse Elementary School and the community, Laurens County prosecutor Jerry Peace said.

Continued

clipped from www.msnbc.msn.com She pleaded guilty and read a three-page apology to the victim, his family, E.B. Morse Elementary School and the community, Laurens County prosecutor Jerry Peace said. Peace said that he offered a plea deal that would have recommended 14 years in prison for the former fifth-grade teacher, but that she refused and decided to take her chances with the judge. "It's not an inappropriate sentence," Peace said. "I respect the judge's decision." A phone message left for Schweikert's attorney, Chip Howe, was not immediately returned. The boy's family was satisfied with the sentence, Peace said. Some black residents were upset by the handling of the case and another involving a white teacher and black student, particularly the release of the teachers on bail. They said the cases show how crimes by whites against blacks are treated less seriously than other offenses. Copyright 2007 The Associated Press. All rights reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or redistributed.

Strong as I feel

I'm really getting tired of all my ups and downs. Yeah, even if some of them are self induced. I'm still tired of them. How can on one side of my life everything be going swimmingly (I'm loving getting to spend time with quality friends and have intelligent adult conversation and time with my boys who are just growing and getting smarter everyday) and on the other, I have people stressing me out (either friends/family or the doctors). Why does everything take so long?! Really, they shouldn't be allowed to make you sit on pins and needles for a month or so before you know if your sick or not. I don't feel sick, but then, unless it just got out of control I wouldn't. IF i have something wrong. and there in lies my stress. I don't even know. And no, if i haven't already told you whats going on, I'm not going to. for one big reason, i don't want everyone worrying about the specifics, asking me if I've heard anything, etc. Sure, if and when i get a diagnosis I'll let the world know. but at this point it's all scary speculation.
I've decided I'm really going to put forth effort into learning to play guitar. I've printed out the tabs to a song i want to learn, and i have a book of chords on it's way via a friend (supposedly). so, maybe a year from now, i'll be a rock star. lol. we know thats not happening.
I've also cut myself off spending wise. sorry friends, i don't have money to hang out, buy you cigarettes and dinner, or whatever else i normally would do cos i heart you all. I'm so far in debt that i feel hopeless. well, not completely hopeless obviously since I'm working on undoing it.
Basically, once I've got my budget worked out, I'm short about 300 a month. that's a lot, i know. so, not sure what I'm going to do about that. i need to get out of the hole though. so, it will help not spending time and money on/with friends, though i do enjoy that alot.
I might get to see a movie this week. it's a big might though. I love going to movies.
I'll write more, maybe today. definitely tomorrow.
Love you all.
Lindsey

Tonight, for the first time in a long while

I am actually going to celebrate my birthday. not just go spend money and justify it with my birthday. I have not celebrated since I turned 18, 6 years ago tomorrow. That changes tonight though. My friends band (Death Valley Driver, out of Chattanooga) is playing at my favorite Watering hole "Ziggy's". they even put that it's my day on their flyer (well, one version of it anyway!). I don't count on many people actually coming to celebrate me, but i'm sure as hell going to pretend that's what they are there for! I'm even going to be able to get Patrick in and all he has to do is man a camera! After the show we are gonna go to some chicks graduation party ( i don't mind sharing and butting in on other peoples parties!) I'm sure I'll get at least tipsy while over there. I think someone else wants us to go to their house too, but i just don't see how we can fit it all in. When i get home from work i have to redye my hair too. and that takes forever! plus i need to fix my bangs. stupid things and their jaggedness! Anyway. I even have a new outfit to wear tonight. i'm gonna look purdy!
Then tomorrow i'm gonna help out at a benefit for Nathan! I was going to help set up, but i just don't really see that happening. I'm thinking more of showing up around noon and staying for clean up. Then i just have to procure dinner and it's off to a look outs game! Nothing like free tickets and it's something i can do with friends, and thats really all i want out of a birthday anyway. Sunday i'll get my kids back early and go over to moms to celebrate with my family. that's going to be fun!
I miss jessica too. I haven't seen her enough lately. I've been busy, and she's got to take care of nathan, and i don't want to intrude on that. Nathan's super cool too. I'm enjoying all of my new/renewed friendships. It's funny how lonely you realize you were once you have good friends again. Hopefully i get to keep them!
you know, i love blogging. even if there is no point what so ever. makes me feel good. i don't really read the clever analytical one's anyway. i want to know people's personalities not thier politics. but that's just me!
Hugs and such,
Lindsey